todae went to petir court.
memories keep playing .
the bear and the necklce seems not to be levaing .
when it wana lost, it's back
wads that?
heaven's will ?
its just so conditracting.

[[ shagua . sians. gona work at bakery. yeah!! if u really work at the bakery . then good. cuz that might be ur very small first step towards ur SWINGBY liaos. hahs .im sure you can do it der bahhs. JIAYOOUS! XD <3]]

sorry . i cant decieve myself.
i still love him . i cant allow myself to hv two per in my heart.
thats not me . and besides , though i know i will be happier if i choose you.
but like i say i cant decieve to myself the fact that i love him still .
if i could really forget him . i would had done that long ago.
i hope you understand . you will still be my friend,ehs ?
hahs .

[[shagua .tml work again liaos. must jiayouus worrs. enjoy ur so call enjoyment. which is slack XD. hahas. dun wear out lers wors . love ya .Nights. <3 ]]

i dun expect that he will appreciate touch or move.
boy u nv knw , nv knw. how worried am i yst .
how cld u just leave me . i cant imagine what will happen if u really go and did that yesterday .
though i rejected ur call . but still feeling worrying somewhat .
really. i feel like just exhang.and yst i really just did go off like that.
but u dun know . only my sister know . i told her not to call u . or my parents up .i dun know who the hell went to spout on me . i know how u feel . read my phone and u will know. there's a few times.the necklace jjust went off like this. but i found back . im thinking is it fate? playing on me?
lost and let me found back . i ask god. had out fate ended. he told me no .
i hv no idea what can i do or say to let u trust me again ,
i very xing ku . im speaking ALL the truth yet you. perhaps i shd not had disturst u in the first place despite the fact that u let me down . my smile is hidden smile . is a broen smile . no more me.since u really dun wish to see the
shd i just bear and exchange and leave ur house right now?
no matter how long i love you will still be waiting for you.


[[shagua . u body ache and running nose, must taking care , take medic hors. dun scared me next time. im raly worried. dun play so much psp lar hors. hahs . still got more to go on . but i sick not feeling well , next time bahhs =D love ya ]]

she's speechless.he dun understand. nv understand why she kept on clinging and bugging him non stop . she dun want t0, because she knows that if she continues to do so , he will detest her and eventaully becomes a nuisance. Why could her other few friends who knows whats going on can understand but not him ?what causes their break up , what causes her to kept on clinging to him . what causes her to become a nuisance.he only thinks it's an excuses.because he understand nothing.
this few days she had met some mishaps. which she knows is a hint to it .
she cant imagine what's going on more . that she guess she hv to stop working.
Her friends and him scold her stupid . Her friends scold her stupid because they said is alright if he dun understand a single thg. but he dont even appreciate it and u are gona exchange ur life for such a per . he scold her stupid and told her she've no right to do so .

yeah!she've no right to do so . she've no more rights to interfere his life. she've got no more rights!She's stupid. but now only her who can help him out, if there's other ppl who can help him out, they wldnt had find her! they wld had find others . besides, she's still in deep love with her.
she lost the chance of being with him , she dun wish to lost the chance of saving her love ones. Now, she dun bother much if they are able to be together again , she dun bother if she had become a nuisance in his eyes. she's just wana him to be safe and sound .

If she can help him to pull thr and save him.
why not? Hey friends, i believe he hv brighter future than me.
he have his dreams. his ambition . but do i? yeah . i might hv. which i thk will nv come true. but his will defenitely come true.Dun ask me how i know, you all knw who am i and how i knw ders! beside im still sick . i dun know when the hell will i recover. or will i get to recover!
and whatever she do,she doesnt expect he will be grateful come back to her and be back her bvoyfriend. whatever she do , only got one intention . she want her love boy to be just safe and sound . turn one big round, that's still her intention .of cos she dun deny the fact that she seeks for his understanding of all these .

or does he really need times to thk thr .

If u were given a chance to save ur love one, would u?!

[[ shagua. can u dun be so sha. dun play hard hearted and my last term and condition with them will cancel off. by then i will left with one conditon with one instead of two.unless u want me to met more mishaps. u can say im threatening . but for the sake of both our safety will u just listen ? listen for the sake of our safety. ]]

this's the first time saw chiu was so disappointed in me
for 7 yrs, i can hear from her voice and tone that she was not only shi wang but upset for what i had done too. though it doesnt concern her.
but as her friends,she have the right. and i understand because she treat me as her best friend, that's why her respond is like that. but i believe she will cool down soon .


Finally i had tell him the truth of causes in our relationship
and what i had been helping him all along.
as each day goes by, my thoughts for him is even deeper.
my heart just cant stop loving. it pain inside .
but i told my myself , there's nth i cld do , a part of me was dying , and no for the sake of him , whom is my loves ones. i will keep on holding my breath .

[[darling , i knw that by helping u will risk my life sometimes. but i m willing to do so ,because, perhaps thats the power of love. i dont care if we still can be back tgt, or do we still hv the affinity or are we destinied again or not.as long as. u are safe and sound.i hope u understand. ]]
i miss u deeply.

By keeping silent wont let me forget him or any help
it will only worsen my love sick.
make me hurt. will it numbs. my love still remain the same
i dont know what's got into me that made me love him down to the pit
call me crazy. call me blind . bcuz i love him , im able to let go my ego .
i dun care. i love him not bcuz he give me what i wana before.
is becuase i really do love him for who he is.
if i dont, my love wldnt had become un condtioner love.
and yet so deep .

i miss you i miss you i miss you.

read the previous post first =D
i wont tear down this blog ,
till the day i had stop loving you.
if i were to let u fall in love with me,
im confidence of it that im able to let u love me again

i miss you too much
i love u too much that it hurts.
that im holding back my tears,
that im pushing back everything
that im force to put on a curve and smile .

Every night i seat on my bed,
looking out of the windows,
straight at the skies staring across where u live
listening to the BROWN EYES only that time,
im then able to let the tears roll down my cheeks.
cried out my heart.

in fact, i dint even sleep
i sleep fro less than 5 or 3 hrs ever night
because i couldnt get to sleep.

The empty space and air is filled up with my sorrow and pain.
there aint anything more to describe my agony.

I miss ur voice and everythings.
i miss ur love,
but i know what's not meant will nv be
what's mean will ever be.

im blaming myself all nights.
i blame myself for letting u knowing me,
giving u so much hurts .
blame myself for not cherishing, not loving u in a right way .

I know i hv to let go,
but i could not bear .
i know i hv to stop loving.
i tried. i tried once. i tried twice. i tried hard.

but my heart .my heart. all my heart!
cant stop crying.
cant stop blaming myself.
cant stop loving you.
cant bear to let go.

each time i walk pass the bb court,
i saw our shadow the night we been with each other .
each time i walk pass ur class i saw ur shadow.
everywhere i go i saw both of our shadow. memories playing non stop.
i smile . i laugh. i cried to myself.

staying in sch , is like staying in memories.
i love u not because for the sake of memories.
but is i really love you.
because i had really love u un- conditonally
im able to put down my ego.
asking for another chance to love you right again .

and this time round.
im sure i will .

ps:Darling, hear from ur voice that you are abit sick , take care. ifu are not then good. NO U ARENT FAT. how many time u wana me repeat? all the best for moday and tues paper. perhaps u wont get to see my blog but what matter most is i did send my blessings.

i've got all this from the bulletin post =)
and it's mostly the fact .

PART 1
if a girl cries in front of you,
it means that
she couldn't take it anymore...

If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go, she couldn't go backto being herself anymore...

(V ERY TRUE!!!)
A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person who she love the most,
she becomes weak...

(VERY TRUE!!!)
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down herego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you
please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cry rite in front of you,w
hen she cry bcoz of you, Look into her eyes, Can u see n feel the pain n
hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity, In front of you, And bcoz of you?
Sh e cry not because she is weak, She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,
She cry, Because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt, nagony have become too big a burden to be kept inside...

Guy s, Think about it...
If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And all because of you, Its time to look back on wat u have done, Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it. Coz one day....It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

PART 2
Guys,Realize that the girl holding onto u isperfect in her own special way.
The way she laughs.The way she sleeps.
The way she loves you.
The way she tries to please you.
Always remember that.
She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her more.

For all you know, there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting, a maybe perfect love for her.
There might also be someone out there.
who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now.

Fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.
Understand that.
Imagine this, guys.When you are holding her today, and you cheat on her
by hugging and kissing another gal.
And then you run back to her.And u do the same.But you see love in her eyes.
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are good looking,
have money,
buy her things,make her parents happy, or that
you can have anything you want in a snap.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say,everything you do.
Guys, cherish and appreciate your girl.Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.

For everything she has done for you,
the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.

PART 3
Girl facts:
When you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to lookback and smile
When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking with youshe wants you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug she will just stand there
When you break a girl's heart
she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later
Wh en a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind

When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions,
she is wondering how long you willbe around

When a girl answers, "I'm fine,"after a few seconds,she is not at all fine
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are playing games!!!!!!

When a girl lays her head on yourchest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever

& amp; amp; amp;
When a girl says she can't live without you or mean everything to her,
she has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you
morethan that

When a girl is meant to you after a break-up
she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows
you might be gone forever.
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i miss u too much that it hurts,
that im pushing back every tears, holding on every drop in tears.
and force myself to put on a curve and smile.

cherish for whatever u hv.
cherish the time when u are with ur boy.
girls heart are fragile, so do guys when they are hurt to the pit
girl crys because they could not hold on to the budern anymore, boy cries because they had really been into love.
never regret for whichever path u chose,
if u chose to wait make sure it's worthwhile for ur wait.
if u chose to love, assure of urself,u might find it tough but make sure u wont say sorry.
no ones will know what will the future holds for them ,
no ones knows ten years down the road will he be ur boy and hv the affinity.

Before u want to leave ur boy,
think twice before u make a step.
think twice is there anythg in the relationships for u to hold on
think twice is he worth for ur love again
think twice for EVRYTHING .BE TRUE TO UR OWN FEELING
NEVER SAY BREAK UP AND LEAVE ANYHOW.
when he's back to hold u , try to give him a chance cuz it shows that
he had fallen in love with u ,and wish u can be with him again.

nv hurt a guy too deep
nv lie to a guy too much even it's white lie
because when u hurt him too deep . he will feel numb, like girl too,
unless he love u unconditionally.
because when u told too much lies ,white lies he still find it a LIE
and he dun like u to lie .He might get hurt when u told him the facts, but he will get even hurt when u chose to uphold the truth . even if u tell him at the truth at the right time he might forgive u once, twice but wont be everytime.

when being together,
cherish each other,
tell the truth , speak out from the bottom of ur heart.
when u meet any mishaps,seat down discuss with him
let him be by ur side, with you, solve it together,
dun settle it alone . because it involves two party .
he wont and will nv like it.
Dont wait till his heart had died out and then regret.
by that time it's too late,cuz there's a very very vey least chance
that u are able to relight the candle in his heart again.

i love u and miss you too much , that my heart is crying non stop .

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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