I only love hIm

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 ; 11:31 PM?

Baby , i love you so.

if this pain goes on and on 24hrs non stop
only stop for 1 to 2 mins ,
i know that the cells in my head will burst .
and it will go even worst .

Heys. sorry Guys that i cldnt join u all in the CHINA HERITAGE trip
i want to . but i cant
im sick . hahs . hope u guys enjoy urself,ehs?
hehes .and well .lastly SELEMAT HARI RAYA to all my malay girlfriends.forget to wish u girls. hehehs.
anyway u girls look gorgous abd pretty that night =D

[[Darling . heys .i call u but no reply. how's ur last day of preparations for exam?
hahas . work hard hard wors.lvoe ya =)]]

; 2:48 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

yeah! im glad that teacher is back todae
she's back to pack her thgs.hahs . glad that i could pass her my card =)
my god. im so touched. thanks teacher.
dun worry , i wont hestiate to email u , if i do face any probs.
really, once again i must said that u're an angel in disgused =D
Forget u not. X)

SawChiu . dun like that bahhs. i understand ur xim tia.
that night u cried out ur heart, i cld rerally feel ur sorrow. cuz i had been thr . try to stand up, be strong, hao mar? see u like that i oso xim tia.i do admit that i wana cried too . but i dint. i force my self to put on a smile each time,when i wana cried. u dint know . guess u dint notice too. perhaps u did. but u chose to keep quiet. hahas. well u mustnt fall!u fal ler, whose gona comfort me and guide me to the right path again. whose gona tell me honestly what's my weakness and help me chg. hahas. i still wana hv high and fun days with u.who's gona do everything for what we do before tgt. like taking lolipop along the streets. plating with balloon. wish upon the balloon . Jog and more more more to go manns.there's still a long road down ahead of us. i wana see the optimistic u , not like now . alright.
SMILE !=D

[[Darling! jiayouus. sorry if i kept repeating JIAYOUUS.hahas. next week ur exam soon gona be over lers. hahas. ENDURE =P . ths few nights kept raining, dun catch a cold , and dun u dare to fall sick untill play game sdtill can cover the blanket and play one hors! ]]
WeiS. shagua!i promise u i will go check up i will sure go ders =)
This time round i wont break my promise.

As each days goes by,
my heart pump even faster, cuz it's getting nearer.
and each time i thought of it iwould cried again , may i just faint again like i did last few 1 or 2 days ? sleep on and nv wake up, so i wont shed a tear. for that sickening stuff. and i wont hv to be so frantic over it .

Monday, October 29, 2007 ; 8:59 PM?

Baby , i love you so.

Regret that i dint turn up last friday.
i couldnt even sign on the card myself for her. but glad that a friend of mine help me to do so. thanks you =)
when my friend told me the news. i was like. huhs?!my tears was about to drop.but then i hold on to my tears. saddening . why must she leave. i cant bear. really cant bear. cant bear.
Well. Is she the one who enlighten me. teach me abt life.
when im troubled i do look up for her once. is her words which had inspired me . Not only her words but her teachings too.
she had a superb ways of her own teachings. she had a heart of magneosium. So far, she's the first teacher who gained my total respect.
Dont u guys find it a laughing stock ? why each time when there's a gd teacher appear in front of us , be with us for only a short period and they got to leave to somewhere. yeah . people comes and goes ard.it's apart. That's part of life .
Her words. teachings. Jokes. every little bit of her will always be in my memories. her inspiration and the impacts that she cause on me.
will never be forgotten.and will always rmb in heart and mind. But she's really a superb teacher, who ought to gain resepct and love from students. Wherever she is, May god bless her. =D

Wednesday, October 24, 2007 ; 11:49 PM?

Baby , i love you so.

my head is sickening pain . running all over like mad.
asthma coming up every few hrs.
my god.heaven pls stop playing a fool on me =)

[[darling . find me back my watch pls ? hahas . i need it loads manns. pls?continue to JIAYOUUS in ur studies wors.hahas =D]]

i realized that my words are so direct and mean.
and yet she dun get my point still. perhaps today she might had been spouting nosense again? wells. ohs my god. i dun care or give it a damn.
i nv knw that i could argue and "negoiate" with her till my asthma came up,resulting me fall sick and absence from school today.
kept telling her not to . yet she insisted . seems that her patty childishness game will nv stop . oh my. hv a rest .early in the morn wake up not long ,saw that sms . i was again . OH MY! pls pls pls.the conversation on phone with that girl .motive and main pont was asking her STOP asking my friend to chose side.and stop putting my friend in diff spot again.on phone . she inteneded and WANTED to drag another per in. saying alright "we got that her chose . see if she agree wuith who" i dun want. because i know that. in this way that victim will get hurt or stress again.i kept telling her. that vicitm is her good friend for yrs, arent she guilty by keep putting her friend in diff spot? is she really happy by gaining happiness by making others ppl life diff? arent she feeling remorseful at all, time and time again doing such thg to her friend? i DIDNT threaten her. is she who in return threaten me. well i didnt fall for the trap and got threaten. just so what she want?

really disapointed. that girl . yeah . that friend of mine.
judge and come to a conclusion. misjudges the whole thg by listening to one side.i told one of my friend. well . true enough my friend agree and stand on my side. so what if her side got more ppl standing by on? yeah . MAJORITY IS NOT ALWAYS RIGHT. and said that i threaten them.
sad-ed sad-ed . disap . diasp . really nothing more to say. speechless. speechless.OH MY~ believe or not. up tp you .

gona rest.

; 3:09 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

before i start typing anythg more. i just wish to sae.
really. i mean the pig pig in tamagotchi =(
not refering to any more thg else liaos =)

there i goes.
super duper boring boring. and lame lame.
3 hrs of math enrichment. 3 hrs of eng.
okies. math. IT math. well. i find english course more meaningful than the math. =)
hahas. the teacher was cute. lols. and the poor tata bear was throw all over the places. shdnt hv go to sch. cuz my head was in pain .and it's damn pain . =(
heys heys heys . during MATH i use the Ebddy. com to online. hahs. which actually makes my life during math lesson not that boring!yeah!
hahas. okies. aft "conveying" some msg to that someone. im gona go off. my head is damn pain . in comma soon again , i guess.

[[Darling ,heard that todae's chemistry paper is tough.no matter what jiayouus. i got confidence in you. heard from my friend too,, yeah u are weak in math , but u are da best too , cuz u kept asking teacher on how to reolve it and tried ur very and all da best to attempt the Question. ur dilligent looks and positive att learning is memerizing me.CONTINUE mans.hahas. love ya =)]]

There i goes: msg mend for that soembody. =)
To be frank. right there yeah is you.
stop all ur nosense pls. pretty frank. i had always wanted to make peace with you,i nv detest u. neither do i hv any bad impression on you. i had been giving u chance over again and again . yeah . i do hv high limitation of patience.but that doesnt mean u can test me. yet u kept on creating havoc. finding trouble for me. u must be thinking i had a hard time putting up all ur NOSENSE. u must be seating aside watching and waiting for me to cry just because u speak ill of me? YOU ARE WRONG. in fact , i DIDNT. i smiply ingore and didnt even want to bother .bothering such act of urs, is just a WASTE of my energy.u are really conceited. dun know wad's that means? nvm i eleborate for me. meaning u are those who kept thinking highly dwelling of oneself. ur action , ur words, ur att. simply IRKS. u must be thinking wried, then why do i hv to post and tell u all these here,ehs? because again and again , for yrs and yrs. u had been putting my friends, esp those who were close to be in diff spot. and i cant stand the sight of seeing them stress up in btw u and me.whenever they wana to be with me, is ur stupid att and threating. which makes them stress up let me tell u ,just in case u urself oso dun know, u threaten them by saying " if u go with jessie,then i wont talk to you." " if u go with jessie then ...blah blah blah. "all ur craps. they wana be friend with both u and me. and PEACE. yet u kept on making life diff for them for wad. LISTEN UP!when would u stop bearing grudges?the one u are aft and detest is ME. NOT THEM. is there a need to make their life diff? that yr u were the one who told my 4 friends ,sec 2 that yr,rmb?> they all to CHOOSE. they chosen me over u , yet u CLAIM that i snatch ur friend.OH MY GOD! u gave ppl choices yet u see it that way. then u might as well dun ask them to chose and ORDER them instead. see for urself. if they will detest u even more. When are u gona chg?! ths two yrs. u repeated the same thg again and again. asking another friend of mine to chose. well .todae! u got my malay gf to be in diff position again . u know very well . im close to her in the class, yet i merely join my table beside her and u started to flooded with full of craps again manns.she told me nth . buut it was damn OBVIOUS even another per from our class can see that. not another one, is MANY MORE. IF U DUN TALK. NO ONE WILL THK THAT U ARE MUTE.well.FRANK! my friends. cant even stand you.u dint offend them,but ur ACTION simply irks them. ,i guess. u kept speaking ill of me. saying how bad im . saying untill how crumble i can be. YEAh. i admit so what if im really that bad?! in return , did u take a mirror and see for urself. WHAT ABOUT YOU?! heard from ur friend last time u wana chg, yet? this is ur chg. ?u dint know, all those ppl ard u ,ur friends ard u ,even those who not close to you, feel like shouting at u and ask u to shut up, ehs? PLS PLS PLS. i dint make up this myself. THEY TOLD ME. dun hv to bother to know who .because im not gona let u create any more hvoc and put MINE friend into diff spot again .PLS, dun make WILD GUESSES. u will only make everyon'es life in diff spot. PLS, for goodness saek, I dun mind if u dun wish to give me a break . i dun mind if u continue to treat mewhen will u chg ur PATTY chilishdness act and games? when u gone stop doing all these. this way. u DUN WANA peace and be friend,yet kept on creating havoc for me i dun mind. but ONLY FOR ME. I DUN MIND. cuz i DUN BOTHER at all .but LET MY FRIENDS OFF, it's all btw u and me. they are just innocent folks. Making my life diff is enough, but NOT and NEVER to my friends.that is also the reason why i THK i can stand u no more. stand u no more, by making my friends life DIFF.cuz u made my friend's life diff in times again and again! pls, pls , pls. for godness sake. when will u then stop creating havoc mans!

gona stop here.
hey gal . pls if u dun wish to be peace and make friend.then pls STOP CREATING HAVOC or make my friends life diff again and again.
thanks =)

buais take care and bye .

Jess will be in comma soon,
anythg called her hp or any num that u know
to call and wake her up =)
thanks . =)

Sunday, October 21, 2007 ; 9:57 PM?

Baby , i love you so.

eating my favourtie yummy carrot cake now =)
AH MA cook ders. damn declious . it's finger licking good.hahas
heys .u . dun drool . =)
it had been ages since i post.hahas. been looking everywhere for job.
waiting call for interview. initially went to westmall .went to the yellow show. wells. pls mans. tell u guys . dun work there. it's sickening.
3 bucks per hr. before i officaily work , there's training provided. train for 7 days. listen up .training. NO PAY . -.- waste of my time
hmm. following day went to Jp the house crepe. my god . they recurit saw chiu because she cld work FULL TIME. my goodness. leaving me alone. waiting for the call . GOLDEN VILLAGE. ANDERSON's ICE CREAM. WHATEVER ICONS ,in causeway,where there's another outlet at bugis.hmms. sell necklace and stuff ders. saw chiu and i think that highest possibility wold be the causway ders.cuz i got work in the same line before.then later on follow by golden village. as they are shorthanded. then the ANDERSON ice creams.AHHHS. imagine i can have FREE yummy ICE CREAM =))
hahas.

yeahs. got dinner with my darling last few days =P

xim tia tia. no appetities uhs.
i only want him to be safe.
in order to exchange for ur safety.
i know what to do lers.

Thursday, October 11, 2007 ; 9:54 PM?

Baby , i love you so.

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about

Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand, the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true loveI knew right then and
there you were the one,

I know that he loves me cause told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love

I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause its me he trust and he's missing me if he's not kissing meand when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul.

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with meit felt so good for you to say those wordscause
I felt the same way too

The way we held each other's hands,
the way we talked, the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in loveand I knew right there and then that you were the one

I know that he loves cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust and he's missing me if he's not kissing meand when he looks at me his brown eyes tell it so
I'm so happy, so happy that your in my my life
and baby now that your apart of me you've showed meshowed me the true meaning of love(the true meaning of love)and
I know he loves meI know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause it's obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trust
and he's missing me if he's not kissing meand when he looks at me his brown eyes tell his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul.

tears roll down my cheeks, as the song played.
goodbyes.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007 ; 12:40 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

thanks to ur daddy that im unable to play station . dun dare to say cuz he need to complete his round.
listen up! u thk i like lying ? u know how bad i feel each time i lies to u.
hv u tot of why i lie to u . yeah . u may thk lie is alr lie. lie means lie.
but my lies are white lies. cuz i dun wana u worry . dun wana u get hurt that why i choose to lie .wait till when times right then tell u the fact ,so that at least thg isnt that worst.
u said i everytime behave like this, my words cant be trust. u thk i like? i hate lying to the one i love . esp u , pls, for goodness sake! if u really want. okies . fine. if there's still a next time . i wont lie to you, i tell u once and only one fact . no lies. no white lies. i yi wu yi shi de tell u . for what u wana know okies. i wont wana ot dun want say anythg liaos. i want i say it once and for all. i dun want i wont say , wait till i want i tell u again.

yeahs.sawchiu is right.
i had chg. i only know i love him. the rest i dun even know what i am thinking .
friends went berserk cuz of me. cuz they dun even know wad got into me. and why am i beahving and reacting and doing the same thg again and again everyday . so i myself sick and tired of what im doing , i know i shdnt had. cuz i will hurt them. hurt him . but .. im out of control .im doing it everyday . and i dun wish to.
yeah , im diff now . i had died.
sawchiu's jessie had died.
his xiaowei had died.
i had died.

i had been crying in this room again .
i hate tears. hate crying but cant help it.
i hate jealous. jealousy is sickening but cant help it.
whatever.nothing more to blog. im thristy. stop here. full stop.

[[shagua darling , i miss dinner with u . ur choco is nice.but the mars very nan chi.but i will still eat cuz is u give derhs. =))]]

Monday, October 08, 2007 ; 8:27 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

now wherever i go, i kept thinking of where's my darling. but i can only say that in my heart or only shout to those ppl who knows what going on.
tml math. a math. sians .
thurs still got paper. then count down to 30 oct. if i pass 30 oct then i can countdown to date.
haish . 30 oct pls. bless me.u shd know ders. no matter is my instinct of u stll do hv tiny tiny atom of feel inside or not , will we be tgt again or not , i will still wait and love you ders.
hahas. sawchiu thanks for being understanding like u know i wont take off my necklace and watch unless i stop loving him ders. i will even wore it to prom night.am i gg for prom will be his desicion.
hmms. not i dun wana tell. yeah i agree with them that you have the right to know.
i agree that u shd know . but i dun know when is the right timing. they know. they want they will tell.most IMPT i dun wish that u get affected cuz ur O. but dun worry i wont hai ni 3 mths cant talk to girls ders. then that gal gal who like u very pity lehhs.even if i jealous i also wont jealous untill so bad ders, hehes.
i alr risk my "life" to tell one of the friend. thk he or she will tel u der bahs .
dun worry,ehs? [ if u are ]
i promise to be safe and sound. if i didnt. then let me be your guardian angel who wont disrupt ur life like i used to. wont make u dl. hahas. rmb wors. there'll be a gal who name and for u to call as XIAOWEI der yong yuan ai ni. hahas. shd be ezy to rmb bahhs . because im the first gal who let u shout and scold at me the volume of narain's voice. hahs.u will always stay in my mind and heart wherever i go . wherever i am , u gona be my SUPER NUMBER ONE. u are right. beside sawchiu , u are also equally impt to me. =)

gona tell u wads up tml . i hope that .
aft u know u wont treat me too good. i hope thg will go as normal .treat me the way u wana be . if not i will get even more hurt.
gosh . shagua darling tell u wad. when im typing this post. a puppy came round my feet lick me
ahhhs!!! help uhs.

i dun knw shd i regret telling u.
cuz it hurts to see you like this. when u came to knew it.
u seems.yeah~
it hurts to see u in this state.
i had been crying in the room for hrs. when u are outside playing dun dare to step out .dun wana my expression u all saw ler wait spoilt atmosphere.sorry bu shi gu yi yao drag ders >.<
who wld not hurt to see his or her lover got hurt ders.

Sunday, October 07, 2007 ; 2:26 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

flung. chemistry. i went berserk .
when i was doing , my mind was whirl with my silly silly.
i kept thking thking . then i pull myself back .realise that no matter hw hard i focus still cant get it my mind .pls.i shout "Arghh. yq where are you. i wana my darling. i very stress uhs.help!!" then the opp block's residents look across.i faster draw my curtain.so PAISEH. OPS. my god . so paiseh . my parents dint hear me. they were sleeping.heng uhs.hahs they look out . ingore my voicemail msg.
it's specaily mend for someone else aft my exam . hahs.thanks for ya
concern . i apprecitae it . hmm. exam period dun ask me wad happen ,eh? hahs. thanks .

and thanks to those who kept the secret for me of not telling him wads happening or going on. hahs. really apprecaite u gals. guess i will be orite. if not . hmm. i alr prepare present for u gals ler uhs . so even if im not ard. the present represent me .which he normally mention me as bendan.hahs ya lar. got me this bendan give ders. i will forever stay in u gals heart der lars. forget each other not ,ehs?
alright . hmm . told u ler ars. i wont cut . if not that slash of his will be bai cut ders . u all know how much i love him ,ehs? even not for u all , for him i wont der uhs.
hahas saw chiu come on mans roar and bite my head nors.ARGHH!!! i very scared uhs .bleahs =P
he said if i failed chemi. im really bendan. im alr one. when he kept calling me that. arghs .

[[shagua,enough of my compo and nagging lers.hahas.tong ni zai wo de shuo xin. zai ai de xing fu guo du , wo wei yi ai de jiu shi ni =)]]

Monday, October 01, 2007 ; 8:38 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

editied:

05.10.07:

yesterday . went to kopitiam with ling bef0re consulting a doc.i had a insitinct tht the bus driving by, if i look in will got him. so i really did and look . and i saw him.hahas. hiang and ling dun anyhow play play or talk abt break. i know u all joking ders.hehes. but no matter what must zhen xi. u all oso had been thr tough times many many time der. then can stay up will so long . so must hap hap de zhen xi know mar? dun like me. im one of the good example lers.hahas.so must know how to zhen xi uhs . hahas .

wo zhu fu ni men enen aiai <3

Thanks friends for concern dun worry abt my hands.not cut =X hahas. how i got it only got few per know the facts =)) thanks fadz and eli .both of ur cocern on regarding wad i told u all yst. i dun wish to go, but i know i still got to go.hahas. hmm my best friend saw chiu might be accompanying me to there or i be going alone.dun ask me why i nv call him.hahas. i dun know when i will be back or will happen after that . hahs. but i will miss u gals.lols. hahs. and for those who knows what happen to me aft exam. pls keep it mum. and to those who know me the most, pls uhs . dun tell that "friend" of mine . cuz 1. he might not bother. or 2. even if he will , i oso dun want cuz by our sistuation now, is alr worst to the pit .to prevent it from worst to the bottom of the sea. is best not to let him know anythg bahhs .he might not even interested.even if he will.so?now first pirioty is stil still O,ehs? i wana him to pass. so as friend u will help me by wana me to see him pass,ehs?hahs. so thanks lers.hahas.just in case anythg happen. friends all of u must take care, and live well. =D

03.10.o7:

i flung my todae's paper. i guess.cuz when im doing my paper.halfway through writting, my hand suddenly stop and thk of other thgs. i try it hard to brg me myself back othe paper.yeah . hopefully it wont totally flung pls.

aeroplane had eeen flying ard. guess even heaven knows my xin sheng bahhs . it represent the song of wo de cuo .

[[Shagua. darling. miss DINNER with you . dun cut lers bahhs. thk u wont so stupid either and go and cut ders. u know it hurts when i saw the slashing? u know hw ache it could be. pls .no matter what. cut no more. thank you for everything for today . woaini <3]]

02.10.07

today is 02.10.07. half yr gone . i hd been loving a per for more than that.

i dun know . isit the hatred that cover the love.really not even a single bit?i dun know. you might said no .perhaps. i dun know i really dun know.are u true enough to ur own feeling. if not why wld u slip ur mouth by saying then y dint i tell that gal we had a date. why u wana make jealus. out of fun?well my instinct told me if u go inner of ur heart, u still do hv some feeling. a bit...yeah . u still do hv a bit.

yeah i admit i m jealous of u and ur mei and them.i got jealous recently easily. i dun know why either. dun ask me why.

can we just drop this sub untill after o lvl. then we talk abt it. i dun wish affect abt the exam . pls manns.

i just want to tell you that if after exam , really the last chance, if still cant find back any bit and pieces of feelings, then by that time the door in my heart will automatically close TOTALLY. i will let go TOTALLY . and y att towards you will be only friends lers.

If i go in there. i dun know i coming out. but just wish to tell you that. u see silent is another form of dialouge. if silent date cancelled. u dun hv to worry anymore if im waiting for any gd or bad utcome. perhaps u will egt sad awhile. and later n u will get over it and i will be part of your memories. and also, thosse gls who were pursuting for you got more chance than me. like i knowi cant possibly outwith any one of them. i wana tell u too. i hate and i cant bear to leave u. do u really think i love dying that much?

if i dint get a chance to talk or see you. or even turn up for the date.i very greedy i wana both roses and sunflowers worrs. and uhs i wish to tell you, the day i had leave ur life doesnt means i love u no more, u are still my darling, no i mean dear. in my heart and mind . u're irreplacable. and i wana tell u this if i dint turn up...take care my bear. it consists both of our memories. it's all inside.it symbolized everything.

thank you for ur gentleness. ur gentle hand. ur warm hug. ur sweet kiss that chill down my spine. thanks you for turning droplets of tears into may smiling faces.that you for helping me to wipe my tears. thanks you for ur DINNER. thanks you for ur care when i m sick. thanks you for ur broad shoulder on 020407 night6. thanks for ur 020407 splendid night. thanks you for your noodle. thanks you for ur noodle when im back from camp. thanks you for bei wo. thanks you for hanging in toa pah yoh with me.Thanks you for ur cherry necakle which i will cherrish in heart forever. thank for ur bear. thanks you for ur watch. thanks you for giving me a sweet 16 bdae.thanks you for ur car ride. thanks you for ur first letter.thank you for ur bdae card.thank you for ur first choco milky bar. my survivour. if not for that i will faint. thanks you for your good advice and comforint, thanks you for being by my side tell me wads wrong and right and teach me. thanks you for teachingg me in chemistry. thanks you for waiting for me . when im very late. thanks you for enduring and putting up with me. thanks you for saying " my gal cried" to a stranger.thanks for calling me HONEY~! thanks you ur gentle peck.thanks you for your every single thing and eve more to listed. most impt thanks for beibng my wusong, my darling .

When im not by ur side, u got to know all these. EAT hor. sae ler lor. u fat or not fat will still love you. main thg is u not fat.head pain must eat medic. fever must use the cooling gel ,that's the last thg i might be able to do for you. unless u misplaced or threw it away. rmb to pull over a blanket when u sleep. i dont knw if i still got a chance to be ur nurse and let u hug, but do take good care of ur health. dun drenched in the rain worrs. wait for sick how.and dun drink TOO MUCH yakult, wait got flame then u know.mock exam lers.jiayous. dun overstress lers hors.and hor u dun like to tie shoelace der.so walk must becareful alright?try to tune in early,ehs?hahas. ians hai shi heng tan xin ni .and no matter what u do in the future. i will alays give u my moral support and support in whatever you do for ur life path in the future. I MISS YOU

i also wana tell u want thg. if at that time . we dint manage to patch i would like to tell you, dun apologize pls, cuz is my fault who dint love u in the first place. cant be ur happiness and lost u is my greatest regret in life.If we DID patch i wana tell u .thanks for giving me to love u right again ,i would cherrish u even more than ever. after this tough times is not easy to get back. let's put the unhappiness behind and move forward to welcome out new love life.u gona be my super NUMBER ONE! =D

Stop saying i love the wrong person lers. like i said if loving u is wrong then i wldnt want to be right. dun correct me pls. i rather stay wrong without any regrets. dun care outcome is still positive or ngeative.living in memories or because of first love. just wana tell u . at least im TRUE ENOUGH TO MYSELF. i know it beta than u or anyone else do. i know wad i am waiting . what i am doing .and most importantly i know who im loving . is none other than you. chew yong quan.

YOU ARE IRREPLACLE. NOTHING GOES RIGHT WITHOUT YOU.I LOVE YOU.

somtimes a few simple pictures and words is enought to represent everything.
crying while typing this blog.she really love him loads.
sign off ,
2.55 am. GOODNIGHT =)

; 5:13 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

A guy who had been putting up with u for so long and burst.
the sorrow and pain had cover his mind and heart that he might had ever thg what she had done for him.how she had put up with his shouting.how she sacrifice for him before.guess even he himself dun know what she did behind his back.perhaps he wont even apprecaite it.

extracted from friendster . " BEnQ"

these two days been mugging.
chiong. sians. last min is owaes like that.
SS . intend to study only POPULATION. teacher give hint le.
say only study recently wad we had been praticsing and taught.
A math . mr chua came towards and smile at me saying if i dun want to drop must work hard.
for sure i will.blogging is the only time which i rest.
got to wake up at 4 or 5 for math , then 7 reach sch for chemistry.
ENDURE.PRESERVE. like i told him. jian ou de ri zi heng kuai guo qu ders.
tian uh sheng uh ala uhs. gei wo li liang bahhs.
i want to be like the XIANGQIN squeeze into the top hundred.UHS!
can i make it? it was like a while can awhile cant.yeah. somehow lack of confidence uhs.
esp MATH . and SC. GEo sians. dun understand MR tan note. gona take MS rin note instead.
his note is like diaos.
PRESERVE. JIAYOUUS! =D

admitted to hospital.might.
not sure when . perhaps after exam?
i dun know wad will happen to me.
but all that i had been doing for him is all these while.
is worthwhile. hopefully nothing will come up again ,when im in there.
pls god.sheng uhs. ala uhs. shang di uhs. tian uhs. balloon fairy .
pls bless him sound and safe, if im not around. sians forget .
he's survivour nothing will happen der.yeah .sure all will be safef and sound ders.

she's tired.
when she's mugging. "WO ZHEN DE HENG TAO YAN HENG TAO YAN NI!"
kept playing in her mind, memories kept roaming and whirling
she know she bought all these upon myself. so she shall blame no one.
she's tired not only that. is because ppl kept asking her. despite how he treat u , carry hatred for you. u love him still? when she keep mum, and said yes. they will defenitely ask WHY.and did u thk u love the wrong per. did u ...blah blah blah
she gona said here once and for all. not gona repeat.
because like she said millions of time. if loving him in the first place is wrong,then she wouldnt want to be right,and she wouldnt had called that love.
tired too. cuz ppl run to her and ask her ehhs. if he's gona migrate. wld u still chose to be with him. -.-
do u thk he had completely fade?
her reply was, dunoe . ask him dun ask her. she's not him. mainly is cuz, no matter is yes or no, she dun want to ans, cuz she dun want to make any guesses on such thg.
okies. yeah.she will. she will cherish for that moment. as that moment is contirubted to her life too.
okies.she's really tired. not tired of loving him. is tired of the recorder,esp when come to that negative impact, loud vol in her mind. and tired of u guys Q. ask her no more. pls.sorry for being so direct, but u are not her u nv know how stress it is to ans those Q , and esp when come to Q such as making wild guesses. she'll only answer to him and her best friend.because only their Q wont make her stress. she mean this type of Q.

She's looking forward to bendan&shagua's date.
she admit after that day she's fear. his feeling had totally fade,and no more.
the thought of it made her hving nightmares.
thought of the words and vol made her fear even more.
she gona cry,but she knw she wont and she cant.
she love him still.

SHAGUA! if u see this post i wana tell u.
be careful,watch out for cars. mck exam hors?must jia youus lehhs.
sick lers. use the cooling gel okies.NO u cant fall asleep 3 weeks from nw is O lvl liaos.
sians. must eat! nv eat wait not enough energy. at night pull over a blanket horrs.
pain ler must eat medi.dun be so stubborn. haish . ur shoe lace u nv want to tie der.
so when walk must be carefeul uhs. rmb dun gt urself drenched in the rain wors. hui fall sick ders. hao ler.i not ur mummy or guardian . no me repeat again like naggy der bahs
must take care.JIAYOUUS worrs.
Qi Shi hai Ai ni.ZUi ai de hai shi ni =D