hmm..
cant wait for OBS.
hahas...
take care.
tml cross country..duhh..no atmosphere run around sch,not mac ritchi
ahas..i will try my best to get the forst 100 derr..hehx/
take care sweet dreams bahx.

this is the second post today.

im a nobody.
im just a odinary girl
im living in a mortal world,not in heaven or anywhere.

Everyone have prides,so do i.
Everyone need love and care from friends,so do i.
Everyone need someone to be there for them where they had a hard time,again, so do i.

but it just seems that nobody understand.
but it just seems that nobody will be bothered

i kept saying i love myself, i teasure myself,but..yet..
i kept blame myself for not knowing how to interact with people
i kept blame myself for being so sensitive that i hardly...
i kept blame myself for many things.
i kept pushing all the fault to myselfm,bearing all the birdern that i had to carry,and kept enduring.
so am i lying to myself?

enduring and patience is the only key words which can kept me live up to today's Jess.

However,i felt that half of myself is fading.
i kept telling the others,be urself,while i dont.
i ket saying im miss hillarious jess,ya.i did.but thats the past,not the present.
Why?because i had started to lost myself bit by bit,and i dont wish to.
it seems that everything is so unpredectiable that it had turn up side down.
i trust that my life will be brighten up again one day,but how long wld that be?mths..years..or so?

Now i can depend on the word endure and patience to wait for that day to come.
It really feel hurtful.

spamper?
ohs ii cee.
they are not part of my life,b0ther them for what?
i'hv got smth beta to do,unlike em,keep spamping other ppl part,and dun want to reveal their idenity.
no comment.dun wish to spend so much space on posting their stuff.

well.
today went out with peilin,bing guang and peng yu.
ahs.hmm..okok bahx.
actaully i dun wish to talk ,because im still bothering over some stuff.is just fot the sake of her birthday then i chat with her.
afetr all i dun wish to push down their atmoshere,thats bad,ehs?
haha.tonigh no need to sleep ler.i got to busy with my homework.
quite busy.
so i shall post untill here ler.
take care.buaix.

well.
i walk home alone.
i do my homework alone.
i sing alone.
im facing the com now all alone.
im just all alone.
all by myself.
isit really that,being a kind soul doesnt pay off?
really?isnt there anyhone to trust anymore?
really/that it's hard to gain someone trust?
is that really human's real nature?
must it be so ocmplicated?

i had a sudden fear of smth.[[ those who know me will know]]
i feel that im such a failure
i feel that im useless.
though they say im good at leading,but i dont feel that i am.
though they say im good at whatever,but i dont think i am.
i just feel that im not good at advicing my sister,ok she's lin
i feel that im not good at anythg.
im just lousy at everything.
i try all my best to be back myself
but ..but..
ok,well i try to move along with my classmate.
they seems to accet me and dont mind,
but i just feel that cuz of me,they had lot of thing nt convinent to tok
and now the prob lies on me is, im good at crapping sometime,but i seems anti soscial,cuz i scared they might mistaken my joke.hahs.that's why i seems quiet.sorriew,i take time to warm up with by friends that i dont really udnerstand.hahs.hope you all will understand.

im fear that,
my sisters,my good friend will leave me one day,
ya.and also my jiies??im afraid it will happen.
perhhaps it's the history which mmade me feel fear bahx.
am i thinking too much,
well yeah, i share alot of things with my lin sis.
well.ok she share with me,not i share with her.
im afraid she or the others will leave out on me,and history will start again/
im afraid of walking out of the mze alone.
why everytime when i drop my tears,no one is there for me or comfort me?
why i seems to be so alone all the while,all the time?
why just am i not good at joking and drapping with new friend,while they can.
im scared of being detestable again,though now im not./
im scared my friends and sis and will hate me or find me irriating one day,and try by all means to get out of my life.

im just a failure
im just not good at anything
though i kept telling myself tml will be a beat day,yeah it did,but everything seems to be just the cover of the book only.
am i thinking too much??

this is a posting from a girl who is :a failure,a louswy good whose not good at anything,not good at leading,everything is not good,is she thinkning too much??

im here to blog again lor
the day before yst i didnt sleep,
yst very late sleep plus i got abit sick,
thats whie i came to school late ler.
hahs.i though geo is after recess,then i tend to study more,
but who knows is before recess,and i reached school only after recess
wow.fun manx.
next,im quite busy now ad daes.today show teacher the proposal,then chemi teacher say,she know we put in a lot of effort,hahas.but need some changes too.
then math have to redp,cuz not good.
i ask anthony am i a good leader,he sae okay,quite good.phew!i still though i m not,im critizing myself.hehex.
ok well..nvm.

Today i the teacher's day dacne
wow got one of e couple damn sweet lehhs.
my got.ok.not coupls is pair.hehex.
i envy it alot.
saw so many pair or couples,and...ya.
those who know me will know der..hahas.

today do poster till 6.50 around there ba
tml reach sch early at 7.45am for carnival,
these few days buysing complete my project or proposal rather.wad duhh.
hehex.buty i will jia you der.
no mmater wad obstacle i will go fight for it and overcome.
everyday of tml will be a better day derr...hahas.
take care..

yuan tian xia you qing ren zhong cheng juan shu.
gd night.sweet dreams.take care. =)

hahs.im here to b log again.
busy al the whhile.
even after school,meet peilin ler, still hv to complete my chemi task.
hope that my group memeber are doing well for it.
got abit worry them,hahs,ok finex,nvm,i trust in them.
i trust that they can do it.
hehex.wait astill hv to continue my project.hahs.
=)

well..
today i learnt a new w0rd.hypocrtie[[not sure how to spell]]
hahas.
hypo****,betrayer,liar..
welll.yeah.they do exsist in the world.
but firstly, have you ever thought of
-Who created those word
-why got this kind of person
-why is this part of human nature
-how does this feeling being created
-where it start from
hahs.no much ppl thought of it,ehs?

actaully,in my own view,
the world should be in peace and beatuful with the exsisting of the nature.
it human's nature which make it complicated.
In fact,the whole world should be filled with kind soul,but just because a kind of "******had influence them,they cant tell apart rom the right to the wrong,the kind soul were too kind that they are to soft hearted to the "*****".well my sentence might sound ironic,must explin personally then wll be beter.
as a result,those kind soul who got influenced easily,had started o do bad stuff,though they know what are they doing,but they know are they right or wrong,for all they know was, as long as i follow my heart, as long as i know what am i doing will do.lol.
Betrayer,liar all these are one of the "*****" influenced.
let me ask a Q,Since in this world everyone hope for a peace and beauty,and live in harmony
then how come loar and those would become part of human's nature?ya..once again is the *****
hahas.
Anyway,i belive that there are still lot of kind soul,is just that they had been influenced,
and therefore they cant see their trueself,they hvnt know their true self,
everyone had two side,one is ur real trye self[[which is ur original soul.a kind soul]] the other is now,the att,chrac,temper we are having now.
i belive that as time pass by,there's lot of incident occurs in their life,and sooner or later,
those ppl who might be a liar or a betrayer will started to feel guilty and will repent their mistake.sure there is.
For example:IF this per keep lying to you,but u still continue to trust that person.as time pass by they will be wonering why they lie to you,yet u still ocntinue to trust them.hahas.
they will strated to hv a diff mindset,and later on slowly their heart will feel guitly,
there'll be a chance whereby will feel guilty when u make a mistake,sooner or later that person will repent his/her mistake,and chg to a a beta per.

Even if this person does not have 100% of trustworthtyness,
but they will for sure contain at least more than 1% of trust.
U will have to see it for yourself to understand.
In fact the world can really be in peace and beauty, ppl living in hrmony,is the human;s nature that make it comlicated.
but however,no matter how complicate can it be, there's still kind soul in the world,who can apart from the right to the wrong,and the bad ppl will repent their mistake one day,it's just a matter of timeline.

Friendship:
Although everything come and goes but.There's still true friend exsist in the world0
if ther aint,then why the words "true friend" exsist in the first place?someone it exsist in the world where is filled with human's nature,when it knw that the world is complicated because of the human nature?
true friend will tell u bad ur bad point,even if ur face is carrying a big smile,they will still know that you are feeling troubled.
and true friend are willing to solve all misundertstanding with you.
Well,some ppl,in every path of their life they met their gd friend and they took them as one of their true friend,but one day this true friend of theirs will leave out on them,fr the sake of any reason,then from that time onwwards u might think that oh..ya..that person is not my true friend,and there isnt nay true friend exsist in the world.
well,i guess it was wrong/
there is.it's just a matter of timeline.
some ppl all the way up to their JC life,they cant find any,but untill they reach 20s or more then they met it.some luckier one,will meet their true friend at their early age,
therefore it's not that the friend you meet now is not reu friend,means there's no true friend,is just that the time had not reach ye,the fate had not come yet.
it's just a matter of timeline

hahs
thats all
got to go.
sorriew if anyone feel offended,or if there's any typo or eng error.
hahas
got to buck up on my project.
bye.sweet dreams.good night.

ok.finally im here to blog ler
hahas.wow.stress manx.
Geo project,Math and Chemi project.
hahs.just finish with my main pro which is the chemi.
it's not easy manx.
well,it's tried but fun at the same time.
my aim was, if i would to do somthing,i wana do till the best,if dont want to do then dont do.
hahs.
well,today physic,yeah!!i know ler..
at least i manage to listen in class.hahas.
this coming thurs, got physic test.must buck up and study.ahahs
and ya...this morning,in fact almost every morning, of my life was started with a smile.
hahs.well,those who know me will know why derr.hahas.
hoping for tml morning, wed,and fri.hehex
Oh ya.too bad i guess i had to be on time for sch ler.i mean pruposely on time.
cuz i;ve got no partner again,she had been back to prefect.hahs.
that's why lor.nvm bahx
perhaps thats all fate?
hahas...
okies.got to offline and make a call ler,
gd night,sweet dreams.and ya..take care. =)

wahh
my blog got smpaer again ler.hahas.
aiya anyway they are not part of my life.so i shall not bother em der.hahas.yst mar..Co.hehex.
yst happy till dont like wad uhs.but i didnt shout out.
hahs.actually in the first place, im sad.
not only me,but those in ww dont know wad happen,out of a sudden so many ppl in a low mood,ya,including me.hahas.is smth which cheer me up der.

Lol.
i dont know what happen to me now a days.
so stress.stress like what.stress of project...Maths,Chemistry,Geography,and other.hahas
then i kept bothering about status.is status really that important to me?
i guess nope.but i guess is becuz i too senstive ler ba
then will like that der
hahas.
im still trying hard to chg my sensitiveness.hahas.gtg ler.i will blog again. =)

im here to post again.
well.
me and her had patch back friendship.
yea.so?
i guess we are going to fall out again,cuz of a incident.
it can be stareted out by me? i guess so.
but however,hope she can understand why i will keep asking her for the number.
cuz that job means alot to me.more than she need.
as i had post before,i dont want to pull my hand out of the pocket to get money from
'them'.it's bad.and my bro and sis still need lots of cash.
not only am i cash tight.but 'them' too.
im trying to cheer myself up,and told myself that it will be better day tomorrow.
anyway a job, especially that job,the rate is god,chances come and goes.
it comes harldy,but it went off quickly.
if she cant gave the number is mainly bcuz that person dont want,then i will stop asking.but now it seems to be a diff case.i guess the prob lies on her.and i dont know what's her reason,but if she thk that benefit her alots,then i respect her.but hope she can consider again,that job surely,gurantee plus chop chop,mean alots to me than she do.perhpas she might not feel that way,beause she dont know my prob.anyway hope that she can understand.and i also dont wish and dont want to bother her for this number always.and sure she dont want too.and lastrly o dont wish to let this incident let us fall out again.it's bad.
anyway,as i repeated myself lots.hope she can gave me the number,or give me a possibility explnation,and can understand.im she do.hope she wont let me dissapointed.
[[if you were to see this blog,pls dont give me any possiblity explnation,or give me the numbr or wadeva here,in the tagboard.tell me via sms.thanks]]

Secondly.
today me and saw chiu went out.
wahh..helping her talking to that him,
blood vessels will burst,but he's lucky that though i was going to burst i put up on him.
anyway saw chiu i dont mind helping yoou,
so dont think that im troubling you
me,sylvia,zhengming,and yunling and the rest of ur friend,will support you and help you through out the way.i 'll be there for you whenever u need me,sorry if i had ng you,but i meant well for you,after all,we had been friends for 5 or 6 yrs.hahas.
dont worry.be happy.tomorrw will be a better day derr =)

Thirdly.
guess today what;s day??
S'pore's 41 birthday.
i watch the disc that was given to me by the school.
wow!!!so niice.such a memorable one hahas.
especially the firework.i miss that shot.
hahas.sat i think still hv the firework,i want to go weatch lehshas.anyone wana join me??inform me.
happy 41th birthday to s'pore.
hehex.i love s'pore lots.
s'pore our home land.

few dae no blog.
got few issues hv to blog
hahs.today was quite happy and upset.
appy of the morning incident.[shh..]
upset with that particular person's way.

yst me and jaz went to mrs ngoh side
for a swim.
hahas.it was quite fun make.
we played the guessing game.
wahh..it ans and quest we ask and ans was so cold that it can be cold to death.
then we went up to find mrs ngoh,we thught she might had coked our dinner.
but she was not at hm in the end.hahas.
then we went to lt one lor
i didnt eat,only jaz eat.
hahs.
then meet her friends, her friend got lobang.
well, i had finicial prob.not only me but the some of my family memebers too.
i reall hope i can get the job.it meant so much to me.
i dont wish to get the money from em always.
anyway a job meant vert imporatne to me.
im deperate for job manx.for the sake of my own perosnal reason.

well
second issue
today matter
i shal not mention the name.cua it was bad.
he or she dun wish to tell me smth,fine i respect her or him
but here's a reminder,selfihness will only bring u temp advantages,in the end you will still gain no benefits.may father ''talk" sense into her

lastly'today's ndp performance,not so wad lehhs
not many ppl are active,last few yr derr is more fun,and the people were active.
i miss ndp.hahs.and all the AIs
will sure contact them again.hahas...

few hrs more to s'pore 41th birthday.
happy birthday to s'pore 41th yrs old ler.
hahas..yeah!!!
good night sweet dremas.

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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