well,basically i dun deny the fact that there's lots of obstacles in my lifes this few days
and im really putting on a strong front,maybe.

And i am asking myself isit because of huelie stuff?projects too stress?handle F&F stuff?prepare for cross country?Julia my best company stuff?my common test results?or what?i dont know or it might even regarding to HIS stuff.Perhaps it is all the stuffs that i had mention, and mostly likely what i am thinink was that it might be because of him,Julia,and my common test results.

Well,i dont deny the fact that,
i still like him,
But then what can i do?Take 172 and aboard at Jurong Piont interchange then find my way myself to go to the camp and search for him uh huh?Hey,No way that's too ridiculous.
Dont ever to dial him,becuase this time round i feel that im lack of courage to do so.
And i dont know why isit all happening to me.So after all,what i can do now was to see how's he through chin ta there,who is my other AI.But well,basically i'd mention in my few precious post that what's going on with him.Till now his friendster status is still"it's complicated"
so from there you can know that what's wrong with him still but then perpahs,
regardless what is his choice,weather isit regarding to this matter or not,
deep in my heart,i will give him my full support him till the end.Last time i used to thought that my love for him was silent,but then in the end it is no longer silent.But for this time round,i hope it is.

There's lots of times,
things cant be predict,let alone us the odinary human beings.
If we arent,and we can predict,and our prediction is right
lots of things might be been avoided and the world might have peace.

Friends wont be qurrael to each other
Some family might not have been broken into pieces of glass.
Teacher wont be scolding at students
Students will not be defying teachers.
World will have peace.
and you might even be togther with the one who you truly like now..
and lot and lots of thing might not be happen,isnt it?

Sometimes,i even ask myself,
its you who brought me to this world,
why are you so unfair to me then?
why are you letting me to have those obstacles then?
why,why and why?
But what i can do?
Well,as simple as that, i told myself that it was a test,
it was just a test from heaven,no matter how tough it is given,
no matter how unfair it is,i must try my best to beat it,i must not let myself defeat myself.
Becuase that was a test,if even this test i cant pass then let alone a little tiny small test given by heaven isnt it?

So well,
i had to accept all these test which is given to me from heaven
and for sure i will try my best to pass all these
i believe in myself that,
that will be a day,the heaven will let me have a break
and then let me to enjoy my life.

So well,
for him that side,
i had never regret myself for falling in love with him,truly.
Once again,i will take take that as a test,
and wont let myself defeat by myself.

Trust me
Believe Me
I will prove it.

well long time no blog lerr right,yupx?
Hmm...basically these few daes is alright but yesterdae i found out something nasty about yun.

Well,
yesterdae i went to the spokesow with julZ,kFel,Yun and my ah jie,jolene.hahax..hehex..
we dun really have muchh fun together,but when miiee and juLz have our first few steps into the conventional hall, Julz was trying to locate for Rachel...Rachel=Hueli.
We were got shocked by a "ghost"..lolc...
at the end of the show,there is a bible telling.
Wahh..That's Okay or you might even want to sae that it;s okay for miiee anyway.

Then after that we went to have dinner.
we were like playing merry go orund,till we decided to go to the Raffles place for dinner.
Damn man..that Kopitiam did not sell vegetarian.
Wahhx.then i borrow $2 from Julz..to buy ice kachang...
kkies..then we go to lot one..
saw Binyan they all..we were running away from them,we run by stairs..
hatx,,damn stupidd lorr horrx..what for running away by there...haix..\\tidae my house prayer hall got anivasary mahx.Jol;ene actually want to come up and see derr..but in the end she cant come up..well..its alright,nvm,next time then.

haix..hmm also not really in a mood to blog that much larr...
i shall stop here.
continue next time alright,have to go and do some stuff now,after and before i had swiych off the com.
Bauxi.Take care to all who had just visite my blog.

Common test?
Should help miiee out,in fact it brought miie into trouble.
Blame on no one,but myself.

english Part..i was damn mad at myself.
Why Am i ThAt Stupid?
Why Why Why,juST why?????????????????????

The systhesis part larr..
only that part can brought miiee diasters,Not exgratting,but is true.
I can pass derr,But in fact,Just because of that part,that Section,let miiee fail.

Dun tell miie to confrim when the result is in my hand,
i can alr Know roughly my standard for that paper,
i can get distinction derr.
but just That stupid,Idotic Systhsis Part.

Hate tt.
No no..should not hate that,but take it as a challenger,i must win that part next time round
regardless whatever had take place..

Then AFter recess...
History common test
luckily this is peaceful want.
i mean at least i know how to answer e Q.
Should be able to get a B?
Hmm..dun pin on such a high hope first before the results came out.
hahax..Kiies..lolX..

Hmm..i realized smth,
Yesterdae i thk he was both concern and really wanted miie to study and scor well derr.
even thought we had qurrael,but not qurrael,look like,sound like,and seem like
but is not at all..Hehex.

Hmm..wish i cld dream what i wanted to dream tonight.
...Memories Are Precious to Miie Always...EsPecially...

i am now mad mad mad
this is e 1st time im with him.
what he tot?
i did nth to her
i did nth
we r just hving friendly chat.arent we?
and he tot till like what..

Hey,im just an odinary per.
i cnt do anythg derr alright.
if he really want,dun hv to do so till like tt,yea?
if he dun want to talk to miie then dun hv to listen to Peilin's word.
he sae u did it on ur own accord...
But who cares and who believes?

And now he i told him im disturbing her,
he kept thking i might go look trouble for peilin?
and i go tell him not to worry i wont,
he sae gd gd and got miie to study.
and i told him in a concept he still tkhing im may be find trouble for her
he sae No..and hope i will be studying more and score well for my exams..Grr..
what is e fact now?Are all the Virtual Reality only?

why does he kept misunderstand miie
I had alr bear my tears ferr daes.
pls dun force miie to it,
just cuz of him,i got to drop my tears
and i dun wish either.

Neither am i trying to ask him to get out of my life
what i want is juST a normal friendsly Chat alright...
but Why he Just cant seem to understand.???

Thousand and thousands Of doubt...
When would he understand?
Just When?

When would my miracles Appear?
i hv got no ideas..

but im sure of one thing
although im now in a badly deeply hurt state,
but im not regretting with the path that im walking,
neither do i regret loving him...

Do i love him still now?
Yea,i do.But im not pining hope on us for being together.
Loving a per doesnt mean had to be together

Hmm.yesterdae?
after sch went to juk house to invent dnce steo ferr the teach dae performing..
after that i reach home eat and watch Tv and sleep..
Todae morning woke up,my horrible SOund,Sucks to the core lorr..
all chg lerr..lolx..hoping to recover soon..then yesterdae night i dream of all the Ai coming back to shcool..then saw him..i was damn happy,but there's someone kept blocking my view larr..also forget who's tt lerr..anyway at least i gt to caught some sight of him larr..beta than nth mahhx,yea?
Hmm..then nvm..after tt 10.30 i went to cut my hair..Haix..its okay ferr miie and some of my family members..but then e kids sae nt nice..kida are always e onest one..
dunnoe lehhs..then now wait ferr denise call..haix ya ya,..so long derr..shd i make an auto call?haax...lolx lorr..den tml have to go to TiAN Hui..i mean my religion stuff lah huh..to dance lorr...Hmm..afraid tt i night forgotten e dance step...hahax..but nvm larr hor..try my Best Will do..if im able to online tonight i will blog again alright?
hahax..buaix..KAmPATek ferr tml..and hope tt my dream ill come ture...

For once and for all,
im gona to ask myself again..
do i noe myself?
Is that my usual self?
when shd i put off this mask?
im sick and tired of wearing diff mask everytime.
i Dont want tt kind of life,
that shdn't be miie...

Todae,i go Co,
it was a finez dae ferr miie,
got a juNior Of my own,Li juAn.
Wa she so nice ...and damn pretty than mie,of course lahx..

Then after tt,
Kl kinda tak to El,miie and Eh tag along,
Then half way through,
i quraeel with Kl,my Ah kor somemore,nvm..
then he sae my PareNts..hear lerr..more Hot lorr.
Eh and El thk they gt shock,nv see miie that agiated before.

tt damn Kl, he had nv know tt he offend somemore,when he did.
yupx..i admit i did hurt him earlier before,but tt was just a joke,my joke might be hurtful,
He kept saying i gort many stuff to saem he is more than miie...
But he hurt miie more than i hurt him lorr,El and Eh knw tt too..
i juSt really Cnt stand his Att somemore..Let miie list down One by onE..

-Kept Saying himself cute...
[Ferr GoddNess sake,BHB]

-Kept Argue back,Even If he Is at FAult
[Still call urself a man uh?]

-Knwing he is Wrong,Still Talk back till He is Right
[Still sae He he a good boy.]

-Kept offending Ppl,Still dunnoe,Even if u did cry,Shout at him or what
[He can talk back till he is right,And After tt JokE and Smilez again]

-ppl kept Bearing At him
[Still dunno,Still tot he is tt good Standard]

-wana Miie to ask Ms Choo if he is good mahhx...
[He said She wld reply he is a good Boy]

Then just now i shout at him,go ask ur juniors,who shout at you,
Who cnt stand ur att anymore..
He reply sae all ppl sae his att is Good...

Overall...He is
-Bhb
-Praise Himself
-Kept Offended Ppl
-Keep Talk back,even he Is wrong
-Tot he very mature...

Heng..gort my ah jie,Ee hwa over there...
Comfort miie...
Thx You Horx Ah JiE...

Then i reach home,
I diam...
Then I hide in the toilie crying,While Bathing,After when i came out,My dad ask what what happen,Must Give ppl scold or beat uh.
.Forr GooDness Sake uh..IS e other way round
tHen i juST Hack Care him,and ContinuE to shut up lahhx..
then he Over there keep asking miie...Want 50,100,sim card,Top card all those mahhx..
He ask Half Way, i sae if ur able to give,then come talk to miie...
Then he ask SomeMore..

Haix...Thking Of him again?Stupid miie...
No use yea?
Seperate means Seperate,No use of doing tt.
UNless there is another miralcle bahhx..
Waiting...Hoping there is..
If it did apply to my other jie,Jolene,y cant miie?

"It's Just a matter of timeline"...Said By e wisdom of SKB
Love Him..
Love you.:SKB:.

Crying In the day and night..
Just for the sake of one guy
One guy..haix..feel like asking myself,
is that miie?do i know myself even?

Nahx...i dun even the answer at all lorr...
i just just dun like the way im in now..
but im too sad so for all what should i do?
Just stand aside and do nothing?
hmm..maybe i should just continue my life pathx..hmm..

Grr..Uhh..Duhh!!1
Forget it let miie just go on tlaking about my life of today bahhx...
Hmm..morn?hahax..yesteradae was damn high hearing Ai coming,
todae eng lesson,Yveline lie to teach she had a stomachace,then i tell teach i go along with her...
after that i went to the water piont near the field there lorr...
hahax..yipee!saw him lerr...wa lau then yve go and msg him,his typing was damn slow lorr..hahax...then his reply was DAMN FUNNY lorr..hmmm....
then recess time go there again,see no body but MR goh..then i went back to hall...
after that when is time for dismiss, we were on our way back lorr.
hehex..saw him over there carrying the fish stick and smile to somone else...
hmm..how i wish he could see miie and sae a hih lorr...
lolx..but it din turn out tt way anyway..
i though i've gt to see him after a 100 yrs...exergrating?
but who knows is after a few weeks,but its not so lucky everytime derr lorr...anyway he stay near my ah ma house there larr...er..between west coast and clmenti there bahhx..he leave there too..perhap next time when i go vist my ah ma,see if there is fate ferr both of us to meet mahhx..hmm..hope so...lorr...

then after school go ferr detention..wa..okay larr..but damn boring...still got one more time to go...haix...may i not go?may i skip?hmm...doubting~
then after that go to plaza with denise, eat lunch,damn hungry sia lahh..cmt tahan lerr wor...
then go ask around ferr job,she saw someone she kinda avoid..got a stranger to be her friend..Duhh!mmm..feel like asking myself...eh do i noe this ger ger mahhx?haix..
mmm...in fact avoidness is a silly thg to do....
Then now in her house,editin,updating my bloggy...
Hmmm feel like chging my blogspot ad again lehhx..hehex..but depends lahh huh..
hmm..kkies maybe i shall end the here lerr..
i shall continue other daes of my life bahx...

Perhaps...i should stop crying...
i had see him, this may be the last time i saw him, but no one knows...
what i had seen now is only the present,Just keep e precious sight that i had caught and the precious memories i had been with him before,what matter more is still the future.tml is a new dae,start a new chapter bahx..yupx..yupx...Trust in miracles...there could be a chanve to meet him or bound into him on the road one day...

Miracles Exsist..
Love him.................

after the a few daes...
After crying for a few nights...
After that message i had send to him...
Am i still a speechless gal for the moment?
maybe Nope lerr bahhx..
But all i can say is that I still can feel that special feelings towards him,
even though we had seperated, and dun really have e chance to meet.

Hmm..why not let miie talk about today?
I gg out with jia hui to the Bugis,
then go temple and pray..
at night reach home lerr..im too hungry, no dinner to eat,and nothing,
though mum got cook my share..
then just got a news tml all AI gg to the sch..
im so excited...
Yahoo!!.but who knws is that they hv to reach between 8-9
the school lessons timing lorr...
so sad..then i've got a idea...
tell teacher that im gg to refill water..
then after that go the the water piont which is near field there and refill water there will do...
hmm..Mmm..smart miie mahhx uh?hahax..no lar just kidding...
Haix..i try my best to go lorr...at least go down with a friend lorr..
so that it wqont myself feeliing ps or awkard lorr..hehex...
mmm...then chat with Jolene.dunnoe what's wrong with her de lehh..
kept maglin miie, everytime loves to misunderstand miie derr lorr..
what kind of jie is she,then in the end sae sorry.Damn mahhx...
Making my mood from high to low now lorr...

Haix...All the best For tml,my plan,life and daes...

Sweet dreams...+
(>""<) * + *
(+ , +)+ Dreaming of.. + *
---(")---(")---+him...?hoping so...+

Wow...yesterdae night Ndp,e actul dae,quite fun larr huh..
Fire work cracking,Rui En and taufik they all singing,
hahax..tehn at the end of all perfomance,they conduct like so call a party ferr us,
tt' wad when i show my true self, Hyper And High ger ger..hehex..
And also as i had promise Chin ta to do so, imangine we nv had such a nice convesation,joke to each other before till yesterdae, e last dae we'r tigether,or bus and all those hahax...can be counted as his farewell gift too bahhx..hehex..then miie and Jiahui and Minyi, was over there kept bearing...we comfrot ourselves,Save our tears till e last min...
hmm..yupx...yupx...i did tt...then before tt Sim kinda help miie to take pic with soh,at first nt sucess but dunnoe what he did or sae lahhx,till soh wanted..kkies tt's finex then,but can feel tt he is reluctant to do so bahhx huh..
Then when got on to the bus,i follow e wrong bus,din manage to sae bye with Kian bin,but inly chi ya..haix...-_-" sad now...hmm..then go on ti the bus kerr...i cnt control my tears anymore,i did cried.haix..reach hm lerr..gona to sleep lerr still cry,Nt cuz of back to CCA but cuz of 2 Vr...
1.Leaving Ndp and Ai...,Next leaving him lerr,imagine ur gg to leave e person who u love...
and dunnoe when will u meet him up again.haix...Still sad noW....

Im now a totally sppechless ger...But Filled with Sadness+Some precious Memories in my Mind now...
What i see now is just e present,but i hvnt see e future yes,i cnt make any decision ferr now, cuz human Mind will chg...And ppl will chg,Including their own feelings...

ComIng back agaIn to have My bloggy Webby Update ;p
hmm...souNd abit HIgh todae?yupx..yupx..indeed i am...
hahax...He finally sae sorry and sae he was a jerk On tt Day.
Of cuz im not that bad, juSt by him saying himself in this way and im happy,
main reason is that finally we can talk to each other again lerr...

Friday,yea?
Talking to Mr sim then Xiao gang suddenly sae to miie soryr lahh..he sae he wld try to redeem..before he leaves us.Then yesterday he manage to Joke or TalK to miie A while...
But i was thinking is hE doing the things that he dun wish to do?
Hmm..finez..nvm...Then juST let it be, im Sure he knw beta of himself thAn Anyone DOes...
hahax..

Sat...mahhx..
gg to padang for training, im wearing a slipper,cuz my shoes are all wet,
then that mr tan,he is siaox want lorr.
he got me to take a shoe from a guy who name Ding yAng uh?i guess so bahhx..hahx..Omg tt shoe sucks lorr..then making my leg peel off....lalalala~
lolx...then at night le lorr...wanting to call peilin and chat de lehh..then she watching Initial D,m
so i tot of calling SOh...but afraid that he dun want to talk on e phone with miie, or wadeva personal reason that he had la huh...SO i dial Mr Sim..
wA!!!We had nice chat, hahax...then uh..Im talking a tpoic of myself, tt i was thinking of..then he sae that he find miie quite interesting, quite impressive..Huh?i mean its nth anyway..perhAp not all 14 yrs old gal..like miie will do such a thinking stuff bahhx..hahax..then Good night sweet dreams...we Put down the phone lerr hahax..

Wa..waiting for tues..the Great Dae of my life?i doubt so bahhx..hahax..
JuSt wish Ferr more Miracles to hAppen Bahhx..

hai..why now a daes,
everydae of my life, is that sad and unhappiness?
Love,Friendship...

todae, after sch go eat,go hall assemble,
watch vidoe of ourseld about the Ndp in the padang Preview..i guess so..
and some others videos lahhx...
then go le..
i was gg home with jolene and she was chatting with[..]beta dun mention here,wait she kil miie..hahax..
wa..so Envy them worx..
Miie and skb?remain the saem..damn cold,he was online now, but i dun dare to talk to him..cause wait he either din reply or what lor...then its like in the end making myself into an awkard[ps dunnoe hw to spell]suitation lor...
hmm..so Jolene and Hueli?Bith my jie jie lor..all find their own hapiness le..even though it might just be a period,but its still of it in life and it does matter or counted yea?
Except miie..haix...i dun noe how long will i like this person again...

Age doesnt matter,as long as you love this perosn,
go ahead and love him...I might be still young,dunnoe much..
but i noe which path am i walking,i know my feelings well than anyone knws for sure, and of cuz i noe what am i doing.

Cold war?Arent friend ?Just Ai and Student?
hmm..when can we stop it..and let miie be myself back wheb chat or talk to you.
i dunn wannt tt lorr...really i dun wish too..

Sweet dreams...

hmm...well..bad dae ferr miie again..this whole week really have lots of corruption..welll yesterdae?
Skb pull such a long face...Omg...See lerhh also siiaonz lehhs...
Then todaes...tt Stupid Jazreel lorx..Keep Picking Againist miie,
i talk to Jul nt talk to her lor..i just get jul to be fast,then she she Not enough tiem le u go go first lorr...then everydae still follow Jul outside LIiu Dang..hey,i really wanted to talk back and ask her go get the thing right firts loorx..I dun knw whats up is she still.
then she ask tt msg of mone give who de...i sae A AI..cuz i cnt alk to him anymore lehhs..
then she sae even A 20+ ppl scare miie,let alone miie..hey once again get thing right first before jumping to any cinclusion..no matter what..she just kept picking against miie lorr...
then tt Jul lehhs..keep saying what dunnoe,sort it out with her lorr..hw can thg be done and sort,when e other party dun wish too,yea?im damn fed up...then i will just wait ferr a few more week and see how first lorr..if really cnt tahan le..i shall write a letter once more to her...rather than let her,jumping to conclusion,maglin miie bfore this and that happen lorr...

Haix..tml no ndp training mehhs?haix..tts means i cnt see him le uh..haix..hm..so sad..sob..sob...last few daes i seating at my own bed..drinking beer lorr..nt a real one anyway...
haix...just hope tt everythg will go fine tml if we see each other,and we can jk back again,rather than he treat miie in this way like nw..

what i wanted to be now is..just hack cxare wadeva had happen to miie,be a cheerful gal dun thk tt much, so tt maybe ppl wnt like be wit miie nt so happy lorr..cuz right,they always, like wit miie,then dunnoe what's wrong wit miie lorr..i kinda go rake up my prob or e unhappy part lorr..lolx..tts my negative part..gt to chg..then maybe frm there Jaz..wnt thk tt much too lorr..cuz shesae she scared of miie lorr..-_-"any way well,for her stuff..after a few daes or week sthen see how bahhx..any way just hate e way she spoke or sae to miie lor...
Once again,kets wait everythg for tml bahhx...The Skb stuff..

(>""<) + * +
(+ , + ) * +
-(")--(")--* * *
Sweet dreams...
Sweet Dreams Are Precious,treasure it..
XIAO GANG=SKB...
Love Xiao Gang!!!....

sad dae,Worst Dae of all in my life,
he talk and sound like mavin, but certainly he is beta than him 100x.

Here it goes..
yesterdae nites,
We almost qurrael,
Nw then i Just noe tt,im just a a kid to him after rall,
He once sae before,y did i sae joke in Msn,So serious in real per,Then i deal iwith him i jk with him as normal nx time when isae him,
But who noes he is avoiding miie, and i noe why, he sae cuz he scared of miie
cuz i think too much,He sae Kids Love to ask Q, And than avoid miie cuz i any how think,
after tt funny thg happen.
Then he still sae after NDP we are Friend,
then yesterdae he told miie we r nt related to each other,He is Just my ASi,im just his Student,He talk like MArvin,QIAN HOU MAO DUN.
i just really ..
then he sae if i continue being like this, friend isnt in e Q at all..
Hey,tt really hurts miie....i really do love him
m ceratinly sure now, its not just admire or crush..Is from like to loVe,
But i dun wish frm Love to hurt thenn to Hate.
i dun want that to hapen.
then i ask, so is he continue to do e same way,
he sae well, see how it is his life, he can do what his own.
tt hurst miie too..It HUrts..really Hurts...

Its a Hurting And sad Dae of My life....Tt i ever Had..i cry, it dun solve prob, i confront nth solve prob,wadeva i do ..it duoesnt cure my hurTs.Its is nt his fault,i dun expect a Sorry form him, i juSt wiSh we Cld Be friend.But nt jst Ai,and StudenTs, and Also Hoping tt After rall, im nt still a kid to him...

HuRt Miie Lots....
.:Hurt.:Hurt.:Hurt.:
.:Love.:HUrt.:Hate.:???i dun want.i dun wish too either...Hoping i wnt too...

.:Xiao Gang.:=:.SKB.:I loVe You...im sure its nt a crush or just admire,But is from like to loVe...

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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