hahas
later going to kalang National Stadium liiaox lorr.
hahas.ii cee.
hmm...
triring manx.
yesterday Co,yeah!! i guess ii did it for the long teng song,
hahas.hmm..see how thg goes bahx.
duhh.
hahs.
i feel damn terrible manx.
for the IPW gp,teach pls..can i do it indivually?i beg.
its damn stressing,and i cant stand it anymore.
hahas.
and that damn ct.
eur really not a guy.
i dun hate anyone,so pls dun be my first guest.
okok.blog till here,nth tuhh sae oso liaox
hahas.
take cares.

IIM DAMN ANNOYED.IRRAITING.FUSTRATING
FIRSTLY,IIM STILL WONDERING CAN I PRESENRVE AND ENDURE ON MARR??
I HEARD ABT YESTERDAY INCIDENT,I KNEW HOW THEY TREATED ME,
SOME WERE INFULENCED BGY OTHER PPL'S WORDS.
BUT DONT THEY KNEW ITS SADDENING??
GUESS THEY DONT,BUZ THEY HAD NEVER BEEN THROUGH.
THEREFORE GP WORK,NO GRP TO BE WITH.IMAGINE EUR LEFT ALONE.
IT'S SICKENING.

SECONDLY,
IM ANGRY OF MYSELF
YES.I ADMIT I DONT KNOW WAD I REALLY WANT.
I DONT KNOW I WANT TO PRESSERVE ON,
I DONT KNOW CAN I ENDURE ALL THESE NOSENSE MAR.
I DONT KNOW CAN I BEAR WITH THE LONLINES.
I DONT KNOW WHAT I WAN TO AIM FOR MY STUDY
I ALSO DONT KNOW WAD I WANT FOR MY OWN PERSONAL FEELING.

heard from herr..
he wana avoid me,
he wana told me a lie his num had chg.
he wana do this and that.
hey thats wad a girl behaving.
since we agree to be friend,cant we just face up to the reality,to the fact??
put a w iin ur blog??
chg topic when u heard abt me??
so thats wad friends are for??
huh?huh?huh??
you beta go learnt form her then.
i hate this situation,but pls dont make me hate you.
never eva.
for more details.read urr mail.

NEXT I BLAME MYSELF.
FOR BEING SO...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH,.....................GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
I JUST HATE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING,THAT HAD HAPPENTO ME.
I HAD TROUBLE TO FIND ME UP
I HATE COMPLICYAED FEELING THAT I HAVE.
I HATE THIS AND THAT.
I DON WANT TO HV SO MANY SORROW .
BUT IS THOSE TROUBLE COME TROUBLE ME.
WHY MUST ONE HAPINESS BASED ON THE OTHER PPL'S SORROW??
WORTH IT??
IIM GONA TO BE MAD.

IIM AFRAID I CANT AKE IT ANYMORE.
IIM AFRIAD I CANT ENDURE AND PRESERVE AND ENDURE ANYMORE.
PPL HATE ME,DETEST ME,BY INFLUENCE.PPLS PRANK ON ME FOR FUN,PPL LEAVA ME A LONE,JUST SCARED OF THIER FRIEND WILL NOT HAPPY,
ISNT THAT ENOUGH??SO WHAT DO THEY WANT SOMEMORE???
IIM REALLY AFRAID ICANT PRESERVE AND GO ON ANYMORE...

hihie.
long tyme n0 bog ler.
hmm..well, todae CDP teacher tok alots of things about blog
hum..saying that blog can bring a lot a harm to ourself.
well,thats true.and for sure afetr that certain misunderstandning incident.
i will watch out for the word i say.
hahas.and iim wondering whiie teacher would want to view our blog??
hahas.
ok stop that topic.

Next.
today got alot of Jap students lehhs
kawaii neh
hahas.how i wish iim the in the Co performance for today.
how i wish iim the host.
but no iim not.
cause my standard too lousy liaox.never miind then.
they were very friendly.really very friendly.first time see so many friendly derr..
hahas.they were niice,hahs.how ii wish if our sch is visting em,how i wish i can be part of it,going with sch to visit em.i really wanted to.hahas.will there be a chance for me mar?
hahas.

hahas..
today CO long teng.ehhs..part one and two.surprise for myself,first tyme dare to press and play,though its somehow wrong. abit.
but i guess i can do it.
cuz i noe my prob lies in where.
hahas


Lastly.
finex.
ok.i admit my standard is low.
thats why xj tok to me.
i dun take it as she's scolding me,cuz her manner is very polite.
so i dun feel offensive such as scolding or lecturing.
well...but one thing i need to point out.
sometimes i just really feel like giving up and quit.
firstly,im such a slow learner.secondly,my junior can play beta than me,i can alr go dug a hole and hide.lolx
next,sometime i did try HARD or pratice HARD to play,but i still cant play well.yeahh maybe i got to try hard all the time but not just sometime.well.ok.
then,agaiin iim lack of CONFIDENT.i m sure i can play long teng part one and two well [[maybe the beat still got bit out]],but however i still dun dare to play.cuz
but i dun dare tuhh play,cuz CONFIDENT,thats the key.
iim still trying hard to get that key.
okies.now 0ne request.
hope that next time i can get up with my mei,to perform the GYS.
letting me hv that chance to find that key,and at the same time at the performance let me feel and get the right beat.yeash.that might be ridiculous.but diff ppl hv diff ways of learning MUSIC.
hope tht you can understand.so pls dun mistaken that i wana to show off.thankiew.hahas.so once and for all, gimme that only chance,hao mar??
hah.lol..

okook...gtg ler
hahs.well,
miss those JAP student.they are so nice and friendly and cute.
really.really..really,take care wors...hahas

wows.
todae sch reopen.
hai hao norr.
diam diam iin class,somehow dae dreamiing.
then recess oso alone derr..when wana go backyard saw them.
wana approach em,but guess is still not the right tyme yet bahx.
"hey rmb,take iin jo jiie adviice,she will help you der,and advice you derr."
hahas.ishh just a reminder tuhh me...hopiing that after duering for mths,life can be beta.
wahhs...todae got ppl prank on my bag agaiin.
so sickening.but ii not really hv that mood tuhh encounter so much of that,as i had my own personal affair,so i let iit off..hahas
dman mar,cckss.moe.edu cant loging narr.
hhas..yea..tok tuhh hiim lerr lehhs
hahas..
iif cna post agaiin later.got bit busy.hahas

wahhs.
damn happy.
yst went toith my mummy and a friend of hers who look after me when i was a baby.
hahas.we went orchard!!!that friend of hers bought me a piece of cloth.hehex..so happy.thankiew ler.
hahas.then we went tuhh dunnoe wadeva hotel's vegetarian restraunt.
we had steamboa.they got side dish and deserts too.hahas.i ate the most.lolx..okokmaybe i was overjoy ler bahx.
cuz iit had been siince dunnoe how many yrs ii had not go out with my parents ler.hahas.hao la.i noe i suan ku ok??
hahas..

oh yea.and the da chang jin.
last episode yst ler lehhs.hahas
so touching.i guess that the show somehow..hmm..
they nv host put the whole story bahx...
they got take out some part of iit..
hahas..iintend tuhh borrow disc form my friend.
and ii can watch iin my own room using the mini wireless DVD to watch.
seat bach,realx and enjoy.hahs.hehex.lolx.

hum..today morniing...
wake up at 10 smth.damn la.can sleep later derr.
but for the sake of my grandma then i go lorr.
hahas...ony visit her once in the blue moon,so i hv no riight tuhh make any compliment.
hahas.beside,she's old ler,visit her is also wad i should do.
hahas.then we went for lunch.w0w miralces!!!
normally when we eat together as a famil im the first one who eat finish first/
but today dunnoe wads got into my mind i ate dman slow and then became the last one who ate finish the food.

hahas.lol.then whiile eatiing,that cleaner came with a cloth and wana clean the table, almost puke out.cuz the rag or cloth is damn smelly lor..pls lar..iim eatiing lehhs.whiie cant they just let the customers finish theiir proper meal before they wana clean or wad...??Grr..is so sickening.hahas.

ha0 bahx..
now wana g0 tuhh my you tube and learnt some east asian language ler.
iif possible post one more entry agaiin later bahx.haahs.

uhhs..
yst niight...dinner.
will kill my health manz
fried food.Mummy last min call,say No HAMBUGRER lerr..
then my grandma had prepared her own diiner liiaox.
so too bad.
she cook fried fish and harshbrown.
then my bro and mei eat iit wiith a bit of riice lor..
for me,,too late ler,,when i wana riice she told me not ebough..but still can take a little bit nar
hahas..
guess how i eat??
i took the rice,cut the fish and harshbrown into pieces,then out myyonise,stir and then out on a piece of seaweed for sushi der,,and then wrap and eat,taste like real one..
hahas...

yst tried tuhh contact christ.
but cant.maybe thats fate bahx
ahas..let it be then.

today gona buck up my last hm wk whiich ishh my A maths and abit of my E maths.and then the rest of last week ii can play ler..hahas wondering should i go on sundae mar lehhs..hahas..
hum.am ii thinking too much?or maybe ii shd just go nerr?
hahahs

kk take care.iif can i post a entry again later bahx..hehex..
buaix.take care wor..

-_-"
what a tiring day
my parent went out,and leave me and my bro at home.
and my bro keep pestering me for my chocolate and ice cream
oh no!is not that i dont want tuhh give hiim,but ishh just that he had just recover and he cant eat.
iif not ii will sure give hiim der.
haiis..kids are always like that when come to sweet candy.etc.
just finish my tickling test.just play for fun nor.
see what does it says.

nth better to do now,so post an entry lor
sch is gona to reopen.
and my life will start again but guess it will be the same way as how i lead before sch holiday
hope that my days of life iin sec sch will chg to a better one as time pass by.
hahas.

hum...
still wondering shold i go on sunday,tuh the chinatown.
hahas.its really awkard tuhh face them
and OH YA..

[[BEnny KOR KOR: happy belated birthday horr..paiiseh paiiseh..i too busy over my own stuff,that ii forget urr birthday ler...sorry..sorry]]hahs..

OH.one more thiing
sickening and irriating stuff.
thiis is the sec tyme i got "cheated" by teach.but luckily is diff teacher.
-_-" suppose tuhh meet my chemi teacher for remidial derr..
but who know that ii had waited for a hour,and yet she still did not turn up,she was not iin sch.
siaox diaox..then ii stop waiting and walk off lerr.
hahas.never miind nar..can understand.maybe she's too busy or she's not feeling well bahx
never miind later then call her bahx..
hahs.
toniight had tuhh buck up,push up.
do my hm wk lehhs.
wahs.still got eng,a maths and e maths tuhh do.
hahas.ohs ya.the online hm wk.dunnoe whiie lehhs
cant go iin der.
hahs
hao bahx..
take care...iif can i post agaiin later nor. :)

Grrrr...
silly still.
ponding over that matter.
wana sob out still cant.
aniiwae it best that cant..
i dun wiish tuhh let others see iit....
its so awkard.

Ahhhh...
so futrated.
i wana do the thiird blog whiich ishh specially for my sunday stuffy,QSNB.etc derr...
but whose noe,i owaes accidentally go and press other stuff.then all the data ishh lost
alot of time ler lehhs.
wad duhh...
besiide these few daes i dunnoe wads wrong wiith miine miind.
keep letting my imagination gone wild,and make everythg so complicated.
once again the whole thg is started by me
i really wanted to believe what he/they sae.
but is just they the word they put in can let ppl misunderstand this and that,and making me confuse.
besiide just now a per get hiis bro tuhh ask me to call hiim,iin the end he say nth.
so just wads going on iin here??
iits sickening der lorr.


uhhh...
besiide my sch work.i hvnt completed yet uhhs!!!
so iiriating.iim gona...blah blah blah

haiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzz
i hate thiis kiind of feeling.
it took me for so long to get rid of it
and now it's coming back again.
im really damn siick and tiired liiao ler lar...
ii wondering...
am i still the gurl that who use to endure and preserve,no matter what happen
or had i burst and cant even control myself lerr?????????????????????????????????????????

haiix.suan ler lar.
thiink beta let myself cool down fiirst.
and rest my braiin,,
and complete the hm wk asap.
buaix.take care.

he got her not to tell me the ans,
it seems that everythg is a negative sign.then ii sob iin the bus just now
i feel that iim so silly
cryiing over that matter iin the bus.
but it's damn hurt...then before that iin TH i show kaiinii smth,lixin and other wana noe...but cant let em noe.lolx.
LiXin Jiee wana noe wads going on,and others too
hahahs..but iim so sorriew ler..
i hv tuhh *zip*.when tiime strike then i will tell u all bahx...

isit really really really..............................
100% negative sign??
*wondering*
Sweet dreams or nightmare toniight??
*sigh*
Night.Take care.

hahas
finally back from the camp.
blog till here.
sleepy ler
hahas.tml then blog iif can.
hahas.night.sweet dreams

ii now noe wad tuhh do lerr
ii will let em have a cool down
cuz by asking owaes will make ppl iiraited and p[l will make a harsh descicion and everythg is gone.
it's true.
and siince ppl need tuhh cool down,let em be
it best tuh endure,and its worth it.
and make sure to waited for the right time.
chance are hard tuhh come by,
i will cherish iit derr...

"rmb ! time is always here, as long as u willing to change, u can de"
i will owaes rmb thiis phrase.thankiew ler jie jie.iim sotouched
whenever iim iin niid of help you are always there for me,you always willing tuhh lend me a shoulder,though i had ma fan you alwats
but iim gald you did not give up on me and xian qi that qhuuw you have such a probematice meii like me.iim really touch.dunnoe how tuhh tankiew.
iif you niid anythg,ii will try mmy best tuhh help like when you help me when iim iin critical time
thankiew alots.millin thanks.love ya.

ohs ya.
and pls gurls
dun tell me after giving me how many chances jie guo will still be the same.
now is a critial time to me,for sure it wont be the same.
i will cherish iit.
and pls dun aniihow mention destroying friendship.
cuz there aint a need.unless iits the end of the world condition.
therefore,iif iim given thiis last chace for suree ii will cheriish it.
beside sicne now i know the cause to it,then ii will cherish it m0re.
eveen the critial time had over ler.
i will still cherish and treaure that chance which iim given to it.
Just the once and the last.

My reply t0 the tag:

T0 Lyn:
hihi.ok.sorry for the msn stuffy.wad do you mean by you all giving me chance?
so you really did?ok finex i believe.but urr chaNCE like give till very reluctant.
or maybe not.actually,in fact i appreciate the chances you all gave me.
is just that you all dun feel it.sometimes i try to chat with you all,but it seems that iim not welcome iinto it.so now, you are trying tuhh tell me that,you all will leave me far far away,once agaiin whiich ishh my sensitiveness agaiin?so ishh my senstiviness whiich leads you all tuhh avoid me?and dun really wana tuhh chat wiith me,ehs?

To Ame:
yeah.ii admit i chose wrong friend
in the first place im suppose to have you all as my friend.
but later i turn to that Js side.because last time ii still dun noe how t0 thiink,
i kept thiinking that only Js side can actaully comfort me,and iim comfortable toking tuhh em abt relationship stuffy.untill the dae when ii tok the tortise thiing tuhh you and lyn then i realised actually iim comf0rtable talking that kind of stuffy to you all too.is just that when i realised it was too late, and i understand that its too late tuhh re-chose you or Js side.and i owaes sae iim left out cuz,once agaiin,as i sae tuhh lyn above,whenever i wana chat with you all,ii seems not to be welcome by you gurls.
so maybe I THINK TOO MUCH.then once agaiin.
urr ParT of reason to it cuz of my sensitivness,that makes you all/you feel like wanting tuhh keep a distance with me,ehs?

To both Ame and lyn.
So now yeap.i got tuhh blame myself for being that sensitive.
and i think you all trying to tell me is my sentiveness that leads you all to treat me like that.
ii rmb sayiing that ii will chg my sensitivness.
and iim trying very hard to overcome now.
so when sch reopen,i hope to get the last chance from you all,
and i make sure i will cherish and apprecatiate it.
beside,i will prove that i had somehow chg it.
but hope you all can understand that chging one thing,
is hard,need tyme.but however i still hope i can be accept by you gurls again.
and for this time round after so many thing had happen.i noe whiich friend to chose.
so i wont regret for whoever i chose.
[[i noe you all will tell me dun tell you all again.tell the other two gurls too,therefore can someone lead em tuhh see thiis post?? thankiew]]


***Now i then understand that,actually in the first place, not only Js side can be understand me only,actually Ag side ish able too.is just that last that iim iin my own world i didnt wider up my eyes to look those around me,actually ii still hv them who can be my side,and be my good friend derr.is just that SI BAN BAN,only keep looking at one side.nv go nad notice the other side of em.
i finally learnt that.hope iits not too late still
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todae siianx diao
for the sake of peilin and my present
i gtg tuhh lot one tuhh meet mu xiing.
hahs.dua pai lor .wait for 10 mins plus.
wad duhh.
nvm nar.
hahas.and darly kor,ur present,although the doggy is frowing
but it had its cuteness too,ehs?
hahas.thankiew very much
tml B camp.3 daes two nights in NTU.
Rawks!!look forward to it!!hahas.

2nd part of todae
i had tok tuhh hiim iin the msn
hiis logiic ishh too chiim for me tuhh understand
thats whiie ii keep dun get wad his mean and make hiim peck check,but however i diid read back on wad he had sae to me,ok i somehow understand.
but you guys shd n0e that it's hard for me tuhh chg.
and stop cligning on to the past when past happen to present.
i ask both HIIM and HERR isit my sensitiveness att thatlead mee tuhh a loner?
they both ans YESH!
so wad can tell me how do i chgg it by giving my advice?

1st part of todae
iim tired.
well iim wondering how long can ii endure and preserve.
well isit really wrong for me tuhh reflect on the past?
am ii comiting a scence?
well i understand that past shd not brought up,should kept it as history.
and never meant tuhh rake up.
but do you thiink ii want?
whiie not you try beiing a loner in the sch?
sch liife shd be enjoying fun.
i rmb juan once told me bef0re,sec sch is a great place to make friend with
i understand and i agree.
but iin fact iim not.
why not you guys help me by telling me wads the prob with me?
iif the thing doesnt happen in the present too,i would not even bother to whine and whine about it.
the fact now ish,it take place in the past and present.
all i ask for i just a chance,which i make sure myself will cherish iit.

wahahs.
long times no blog ler.
lets being from the dae...blah blah blah
iim iin K box.alriight guys ii noe sure OFT.but heng lar.not athat worse.
they go and siing alot of old songs and worst still two tigers and tricycle.the chilshood song.we siing from 2 tuhh 7 smth.
then after that go tuhh Jk house.
on the way uhhs..0waes kana bully by hiim.eu watch out.
hahas.
then 10 smth at niight go play BB.wahh too actiive ler
hehex...play till 11 smth then go home

then yst.went swiiming wiith saw chiiu agaiin
hahas.we had a fun daes.we rawks the whole swimming p00l.but when go tuhh biig pool alots f liitle angel surrounding us.ii call those kids little angels,they are having their swiimming lesson hahas

hum***then ltr had tuhh go tuhh BBCC wiith lijuan they all for Co concert.raiining lehhs.may ii skiip?
hahas.
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Herr past life <3 style="font-size:130%;">-- yeah.she loves and treasure her liife.
when she was sec one she was beiing detest by alots of ppl,
she ltr fiind herself 1 0r 2 friiends.
but one of em detest her too.cuz when she was sec one she was like a pest like she used tuhh iin prii sch.and her att sux.her expression iin class was that she seldom smile.and make ppl even detest herr.
But as tyme goes by,the endiing periods of sec 1,her liife turn beta.more ppl started tuhh accept her.some was sympatheic for her,some is really accepting her.cuz her att chg.she even went aroung askiing ppl for comment.as she wanted tuhh make herself feel beta.chg tuhh a beta person.
then iin Sec 2,though there was some conflict wiith the other sch mates owaes,but her friendship life was good.the friend who she found for herself iin sec 1 was getting closer wiith herr.and then she had one more bunch of close friend too.she was enjoyiing herr liife.soon there's a new gurl who name person A came iin.she approach and be friend wiith her.and soon close friend.
she dun had much troubled.
but untill after the streaming.she was supposed tuhh be iin abc class,but she requested for JKL calss..okiies.her wish was grant.the motive for her to chg class was cuz of one bunch of friend and a extra subject.then when person A still thiinking that iim iin the same class wiith herr,she happily go tuhh her and sae"hey we are iin the same class"when person A heard of it she feel abut shi wang.
okiies..nvm.
sec 3 liife comes.
wahh..life was good iin the first place.even though she thiink that the class she chg tuhh had her old enemy who still bear grudges with her iits ok.cuz she noe that sec bunch of close friend will be there for her.but soon.those daes dont last.liife turn upside down.her close friiend thought she betray them.and even b0ther t0 hear out the explantion.then her first bunch of her close friend though she ishh usiing em as a subsitue.then strated tuhh hv conflict.but soon conflict life was ok.then accpeted her again.but iit was just only a say.
soon cuz of her sensitiveness,they feared her.as times goes,they stared tuhh avoid her.then one daes Per B rush towards her and tell her whiie isit so.reason :sensitivness,and plus other reason which she doesnt have tuhh noe.
but she rather noe the truth no matter after telling the fact wiil hurt her or not.
but in the end thiis per didnt told her.she was suspecting wweather isit smth thats liink tuhh her sec bunch of close friend.okiies nvm
then one dae she went tuhh ask the sec bunch of close friend,one the person iin iit.wads her statues iin her miind[[cuz she was the close friend of hers iin sec 1 and 2]] then she reply back tuhh her.more than normal,not yet tuhh close,but still near tuhh normal"okies.she was upset.
then before sch cl0se she did not follow that sec bunch of friend to the recess.cuz she kept feeling that they detest herr...or fear her.and dun wiish tuhh cee herr.
so for every recess.she went tuhh hiide at a corner,buy stuffy rush up to sec floor 0r higher. and eat there all alone by herself.
life was lonely for her..
she was thiinking.

IF IN THE FIRST PLACE SHE DID CHANGE CLASS
IF IN THE FIRST PLACE SHE STILL REMAIN WITH HER 1ST BUNCH OF CLOSE FRIEND,NOT CREATIONG AND SECOND BUNCH
WOULD LIFE BE BTTER F0R HER?THE SAME FOR HER?
LIFE WONT TURN UPSIDE DOWN,EHS?
EVERYTHING DESTROY BY HERSELF.

now she only wiish tuhh hv the last chance f0r iit.
but will she get iit?
she will m ake sure she cherish iit.

*yawn*
11 plus only...
hahs...whiile waiiting forr my maple charac tuhh heal iitself..ciome blog nor..
that bunny and chimpanzee horr..both cant traiin forr mee derr.so bad..so bad.hahas
raiin raiin go away
come agiin another dae!!!~~~
ii wana g0 swimmiing ltr derr lehhs
ii meet saw chiiu liiaox lerr...at 1.30
but iit seems that iit needed tuhh be cancalled
uhh!!!ii dun wan and ii dun wiish iit tuhh be cancelled.raiin pls stop falling hahas.
iim gald that lyn liike the present.hahas.
wonderiing really mar?
haha..kiddiing narr...

ii miiss the da when the few of us go tuhh the suntec city,expo hall,bugiis, mariina sq,esplanade together
iit had leave a great iimpact,great memoriies,whiich is unforgettable forr me,even there's some conflict in the miidle though.haiix..noobdy wiish tuhh leava aniione that who is close to him/her.
but ii had tuhh,even iif ii dun bear.ii dun wiish tuhh see hiim/herr iin a compliiactaed world,ii wiish tuhh pull hiimm/herr out of that world.but it's hard.cuz hiis/herr determinnatiion ishh not stprng eunff.is a fickle minded person.i dun wiish to leave hiim/herr in the lurch or when he/shee ishh iin niid.
but ii had too.cuz iim afraiin that ii might bb hiss/herr burdern.but he/shee sae NO.ii dun iif shh the truth.
he hiimself/shee herrself noes the best.
but aniiwae all ii can sae iis ii dun wiish tuh leabe hiim/herr...
hope he/shee can understand. =)


ok hao ler..i stop here ler.
iif can ltr,i blog agaiin nor.
hahax.

yst lyn suddenly tell me meet at 10.45 in the morn
she dun want 5pm.
ii oso dunnoe
haiix..then bo biian, birth gurl marr.
then nv wrap lorr.hahas.paiseh uuhhs lyn.
then todae her and ame lerr.hehex.then pass to herr lorr

Today also very excat 9 am call emily ask wads the confirm timing for geo retest,she told me 9 am.
then she tell me to faster be prepare and go there.
ii was thiinkiing wad duhh lorr.from 11 to 9.
haiix...then went into 4/3..wad a disgraceful scence.
step into the class room,ms rin,the 4/3 students,all eyes 0n me.uhhs...malu lehhshahas.

then now nth beta t0 do juz blog nor.hahs.
aniiwae happy biirthday tuhh lynda!!!
hahas...okiie.ii end here lerr
iif can ii blog agiin bahx.hahas.

today tired.
clean my ah ma house.
they are in shang hai.
hahas.
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iim tired.
iim tired of being a loner
iim tired of being friendless.
iim tired of accusing
iim tired of myself.
should ii let off everything?

how eu feel ....if ur a per whose so much into friendship and loyalty?...look...
how wld eu feel if u treat ur friend status as close friend,while he/she only treat u as nomal friend?
how wld eu feel?
how wld eu feel if you and her/him were once close friend,but now in the miidle of NM and close friend status?
how wld eu feel if eur friiend is fear of urr sensitiveness and they leave you?
and now all alone in the dark world,being a loner,whereby u treat her/him as a close friend,while the other party treat eu only as a normal friend or miidle?

how wld u feel,
iif eu once wiith a bunch of gd friiend,[[in a gp of 3 or4]]
and then one dae when eu leave em and eu joiin the other gurls.
eu treat both equally...
and there there's a few times eu qurrael wiith that other gurls.
and eu join back the old bunch of friend for recess.
they tot u treat em as spare tyre,iintentionally eu urself dun even relaise that,but eu dun mean it at all,
how wld eu feel?worst still one of the gurls,were new in sch yrs ago and eu approach her first tuhh be urr friend,but she sturn out to have that thinking,okiew.then spare tyre stuff finally solve one dae.
but now,u had break friendship with the new bunch of gurls,
and eu wana be back with the old bunch of friend agaiin,but they dun acept eu fully,
while all this siide eu still treat em as good friend,but they treat eu of the opposite
how wld eu feel?then one dae they completely avoid eu,cuz ur too sensitive.now urr tryiing tuhh chg.
but eu werent gie a chance tuhh prove to em,and ;upn till now they will still leave eu asside,althoug hthey just say they will accpet you.but is only say.
if true friend who accpet eu,wont leava eu in a lurch or maybe [[eg:recess tyme will be waiting for eu]]
okiew.
now lets thiink back.
iif iin the first place u had not chg ur class and remain in the same class with the old bunch of urr friiend.
and nver leave em in the first place,wiil eu become a loner?NO!perhaps eu still enjoy ur sch liife with em,with the old bunch of friend,eu wont be troubling whiie are eu a loner,being leava asiide.
so it's urr own fault that eu had chose the wrong paths.
btw if there's a chance tuhh mend back, she will make sure that she will chose the right path,
and btw hope she's given a chance agaiin tuhh be back real friend wiith the old bunch of friiends.
Hope there's really a chance given...for not letting me to be a loner anymore..

iim tired enough ler.
really.damn tired
why dun u try tuhh be a loner whereby not a single person want you,
and old friend leava you asside
while eu still treat em as close friend?
why not u try tuhh be leaving in a lonely wolrd for just a couple of days?
iim really very very very tired.
may i take a rest?
ii will only if there's miracle,friend come back tuhh me,old friend wld fully accpet me,but not just say,urr friend treat u equally as how u wld treat em,studies in improvement,have fun and joy for just a period.
whiie norrt u trY?
more beta,try being a real loner in sch liife manx.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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