i'd lost my ex link card and ___
well.but when she reach home,she found his shirt that he gave her.
she wore it.
she was glad,cuz when she's down she still find back the thing he gave her.

the birthday letter which mention that it was his first time wtite letter,got her cherish it.SHE WILL.DEFENITELY!
and mention that he's studying for the sake of their future,he wants to prove his parents his ability, want to hold hands tgt and walks towards xing fu de guo du.
SHE SURE DEFENITELY WILL CHERISH THE LETTER!
SHE WILL KEEP THE YELLOW T-SHIRT IN CONDITION!

30June todae.
last post was on 29 jUne.
Would he view her blog again?
They had just broke up.
had he feels beta?
if he did,she hadnt'.
feels the same.
kept blaming on herself
not only hurt but love at the same time
she envy the rest.why they can stay up to half yr,why they didnt give reason such a ___
[[sorry dun wishto mention here,as she said on her previous post,if thats the actual reason,she dun want ppl to misunderstand him,and sae it's an excuses.he might not care,but she cares.cuz she love him]]
she knew that perhaps he still loves her
she could only use his love to wound her heal.
she misses him badly.
she wanted to see him badly.
she wanted to tell her she love him too.
If they are able to pactch back again,and IF the reason is one of the ten as mention in the previous post,or is his family or even IF is she exert stress on him was the reason,she will not give her stress instead she will give him even more support than ever.she will give him all his needs. (dun anyhw thk,blehhs!)
she's not gona cried that often.no she's no gona to do so.she wana give him and bring him more happiness instead.will he trust her?

Just had a tiff and kana beaten up by her mum,
for just some stupid and unbeaable reason.
forget it dun mention about that.
Got to meet my saw chiu lao gong later to make the card.hehes!

wondering will he read this post when he's so stress out,or should i said that he had burn out?
i dont know.
he left her with a reason.
he left her with loads of question marks
he wana be fair to her yet. dont wish to solve her doubts.
he told her he wana told her long ago,on the other hand
he told her about the mum words were hint,yet why at the end of the sentence.
still said he believe he can manage?
it was just 2 or 3 days later he told her he cant manage.
she hv no doubt for his reason.
she accept the reason,
cuz she fully understand his stand.
but on the other hand becuase of loads of question mark,
his sentence head doesnt match with the tail.
made her even more annoy,upset,sad.
whenever ppl ask her,"heys,how's ur boyfriend?"
one answer.break.mths ltr see how.
they ask why.
how am i going to answer?
im not gona sae out his reason,cuz many ppl wld think it's his excuse.
if his reason was the fact,i dun wish ppl to misunderstand him like that.
it's not fair for him.
he might not care.
but she care,cuz she love him.

so all he want is study.understand.
but he end up watching tv,playing ps2 the most
or study the most?
he break up, is it cuz of my fault?
am i exerting too much stress on him?
i dont know.
if it is, why dont he just tell me straight,
and i know what to do.

he didnt come today.
was it cuz of yst?
was it cuz he is sick?
or cuz he dont wish to come.
normally aft that she will go to his house.
if he's sick she sure cook porridge for him.

deep in her heart,
she was thinking,she was blaming herself,though the reason the doesnt lies with her,
but she thought so.
perhaps problems really lies with her,isnt it?
She was thinking...
1.where the hell did i went wrong?
2.my fault,i cried everytime which made him stress
3.my fault.im not understanding enough.
4my fault. i did not treat him beta,did i?
5.my fault.i didnt listen to his words
6.my fault.it was me who give him stress
7.my fault.i didnt concern him enough
8.my fault.when he's stress,i didnt give him my support,isit?,did i?
9.my fault.i am the one who sometime throw temper,ehs?
10.my fault.perhaps i didnt give him enough care.
ALL MY MY FAULT!

she kept thinking all these.in fact is more than these.
she feel so sorry yst.she didnt know he had a tiff or fight with her bro.
she feel so sorry.she know he look stress,yet didnt talk to him.is nt she dont want.is a matter of would he tell her.

she went to the wrong lane when taking bus.she was suppose to go the the ladies,she thought there is at the 4th lvl.
she could hold the chopstick wrongly.
she hadn't eaten for days.perhaps she did.only one meal.and that one meal was a tiny bite.
she cant focus in class.she sob during lesson.yst she thought she was feeling beta,cuz she concentrate beta.
but who knows when it come to night time,before she fall alseep.she cried.
even she didnt cried,she feels that her heart was crying too.
morning wake up,while bathing she cried again.
when teacher was talking,she could only distract herself by listening to the teacher,when there's no teacher her heart was not in class anymore.her tears going to flow again.
but she hold back.
every mins she tried to hold back her tears.
now she finally understand how isit feels when the heart is crying non stop.
day,in school.she tried to hide her grief.she tried to put on a smile.
she tried hard.
she didnt avoid him is,
she dont want him to see her,if the place she goes got to pass through his class,she will turn one big round.
she dont dare to let him saw her,cuz she dont want him to feel stress or anything anymore.
ta shang xing.ta nan guo.first time she use these three words.

Yupps.she still treat him upon as her darling in her heart.
Tuesday she will not hand it to him personally.
she will not contact him anymore.
wont sms.wont call.
wont.she will wait for him to contact her instead.
she dont wish to contribute any more disturbant or exert any more stress to him anymore.
so she shall wait.




[ Darling,i really hope, we can even be tgt without having to wait for our date.if it cant,
im willing to wait.2 weeks. was a small test.nw was 4 mths.i shall prove to you how long my love can last for you.once my stand is firm,nothing can change my mind,not even storms and winds.pls pls pls.
do eat.u arent fat at all,u are muscular alright.u may be the survivour,but if dun eat u hc no more energy.
pls, u are very very heaty,drink more water,ehs? Days are getting colder,sometime it pours heavily,pls do take gd care of urself.
i want to tell you,no matter what state are we in now. im owaes here for you.if u are sad, im willing to be urr listening ear.i will owaes be 24hrs standby for you.heys.u everytime sae i ban dan, everytime sae my soultion not soultion.is u havnt seen the real yet only.hehs.i know how to distress.if u really damn stress,dun mind looking for me,i will be here for you.show you what a ben dan can do.blehhs.regardless what's the answer 4 mths later,rmb my heart is always open for you.rmb i will wait.rmb our date.
pls rmb that i do love you.]

Thanks.
if not for him i might be go hunger.
empty stomach.faint and land in nowhere.
but boy..u gona save and make sure u hv enough for yourself.
u go hunger,i will heart pain too
He's working hard and studying.
make notes.
be his guai guai student.
hahs.
dont wish to disturb him
only can miss him =)

im wear out,yeas?
hiias.SICK!
no one care.no one bother.no one loves.
not even my family!
they thought that im either putting on an act or trying to grab some sompathize from others or them
wad duhh =_="
is this a ho,me?a family?
i seems to be no longer know my family anymore.
well.
im wear out.
gona chase out again.
they kept throwing my things away.
it's too much!
i cant stand it.
i can feelthat blood was all boiling upwards.
beaten.threaten.scolding.
then shadow keep appearing.
i cant shake it off.
i hate that shadow.
the first that i had hatred for soemthing.
im tired of this certain path.
i need a shoulder.
i need a listening ear.
i cant depend on myself anymore.
i found out that im getting weaker and weaker as days goes by.
i can no longer be strong,aren't i?
i hate.i dun wish.i dun want to walk on this path alone manns.
really tiring.
who can help me cast off my shadow bit by bit,or at least cheer me up.
WHO?
UHHS..STOP THIS!
CHANGE TOPIC.
SICK AND TIRED OF IT!


*YawN*
IM TIRED!
hahas.uhmm..well.let me recall uhhs.FroM monDaY To ThurSday!

MondaY

WeNt to maRina SQ with Drea,Jack,Zx and My darliNG.
Ohs well~ StandinG at the ConTrol station fOr 10 Mins,
Finally decided to watCh leGend Of the Sea.
Heys,gUys.That shoW was Super Duper LamE,FunNy,and UHmm..alright the last few scene is touCHing.
hehes.wana Know MOre?Go waTch urself.hohoho.
After that We WeNT to the esplAnde.I keep waNTing to seat on the so call PlatFOrm.
But then drea and darling was afraid of my safety,so they dun allow me to seat On iT.
i was likE damn crzazy On thE esplAnde RooftOp.hehes.
That Drea denied that she knew Me.oHs.
So sad~~~
At NighT,we went the pajang CC there.alright.Near Pajang,i dont know what CC is that call.
Well,im dehydratiNG.Thanks DaRlInG he bought a bottle of lemon tea and share.hoho.
It quenCh my thirst.Finally!
OH!OH! drea got to rush home,so i've got no choice but to accompany her First Lorrs.Hahas.

That Day,GoT But MoodSwInG.
Sorry darlIng and GuyS.
i Dont mean IT XD

Tuesday
uhMs.BORING DAY!
nth to do.but rot at home.
hehes.

WEdnesday
I MISS MY DARLING!
he went to sentosa.
UhmS.Boring day too.hohoho.
Uhms.NopE.
i went to meet qian ting dearling.hahas.Long time Never see her lerr.
She went m'sia for a trip,of cos must meet up narr.
we later on went to JuRoNG poiNt and then we headed For home .
hehes =D

ThuRsdAy
Went To my darlIng house!
hahas.that's sweet of him to buy breakfast for me.
BEE HOON!hahas.my Ai XIN ZAO CHAN.
WeLl.My Geg HurTS.He BEI me.hahas.
Well.SHI XING FU DAO~
nuahahs.
Thanks darlIng load uhhs.
hahas.

Friday
wHich was Yesterrsday.WhOo~~~
Miss my darliNG too.hahas.WhoLe day Nv contact Him uhhS.
hehes.Noon,went with jack,zx and drea to BuGis!
Ohs well~ Shi Xian De Lorr....
hahas.Then eveninG went To meet Qt for BB,then after that we went For a chaT.

TODAY!
go to esplande with qt dearling to study.
it was a nice place to study up there.
the esplanade library.
iim loviing it~~
HOHOHO!

HEYs!HEYS!HEYS!
Got both bad and good news for you guYS.
Well,Actually it's just both the same,
depends on you,urself.

NEwS:
MONDAY,25 JUNE 2007,
SCHOOL RE-OPEN! =D

Bad:Because,can no longer slack and rot,and play as much lerr.
but nvm.chiong for through train exam,score well,then end of yr i can play much more more happily than ever with my good good result.hahas.

Good :because this june holiday was quite a bit of meaningless,and school re-open wana work and study hard.
chiong not only for my academic result,but also my CCA and also my ConDuct.uhMs.
MUST!Get at least 2 or 3 As,and the rest must be Bs,well except for my A MATH and SCIENCES =)
cuz im weak in it.but i will still strive hard derr....
COUNTING TO THE NUMBER OF DAYS TO 2008,THE DAY I GRADUATE.HIP!HIP!HORRAY!

UhM...

Yesterday was bored to death,After the prayer hall,i was loCk at hm.Nahhs.i can fly out of the bird's cage,but i dun want,becuz flying alone is so BORING~~~
MissiNG MY DarLing HEhes.
HaiiS..WoRRYing For Him Now and Then.alamak.Really a sha gua manns!

todae is e last night im using Jian KAi's laptop lerr.so she bu dee.hahas.
But nvm.hehs.andrea,zhixian,Jack,My darliNg and ME! went to watch the LEGEND OF THE SEA.hehes.Well~ that Show is Cute,Funny,Lame,SomEhow TOuCHing.hahas.
My darliNG didnt eat.only drink milo he called that eat?Go oUt with him dun wana share FooD with me,still insist that he eat lerr.Really a shA GuA!
HunGry must eat marr,Even not hungry at least grab a little bite will do manns.
LiKe IT WilL Kill.OMG~
At NiGht,went to watch BB with them.hahas.uhmm..Sora was indeed Sora uhhs.QIANG ZHONG ZHI YOU QIANG ZHONG SHUO! heehs~
aiyas..Post Untill here lerrs larrs.ahas.TIRED!!!hahas..


爱他觉得好幸福，那他爱我有觉得怎样呢？
请问答不出的问题究竟是好还的坏呢？
明白要对另一个对放打开他完整的心并是一件那么容易的事。
由其是被伤过很深很深的心。因此明白 HE NEED 很多很多的时间。
有时后，就因为我爱他太多了，这些爱以盖过了种种的伤痕。
咸咸的泪水以变成了酸酸甜甜的滋味。

我愿意打开我的心，
只要他不嫌弃，
我愿意对他说出我所有的心声，
对他谈心，
就因为是
我愿意去用一棵无条件的心去爱他。
我无怨无悔。

想着，想着，我写的这首歌，终于知道能够献给谁了。
但然是我的 DARLING 啦。
除了这一首，下来还有多一首，正在写呢！

歌名：就因为你的出现

跟着地求的旋转，
我找到了自己的他
他给了我须多快乐，
让我深深的爱上他。

就这样随着一天一天的过去，
我最期待的那么一天终于来临了。
在这么幸福的一天里，
我回愿意变成你的一切。

因为如果没有你的出现
我也不可能那么快了
就因为有你的出现
我才能找到了自我。

如果没有你的出现
我可能还会在沉睡中，
因为你的出现才能让我的人生完美，

在这美丽的世界里
我爱你，因为你给我的一切，
给了我一个梦寐以求的爱情。


DarlIng,
Thanks for toleraing my MoodsWing soMetimEs,
Sorry For the troub that im a vegetarian.
and sorry to make u worry for me sometimes.
Sorry,everytime u got to simplified urr words for me.
is like hmm..i know i am kuku,blur sotong,
i know i stupid,
i know slow thinking.haiis.u really ai shang lerr yi ge ban dan.
Some time i know that i made u feel peck check.
but dear...i dont mean it derr.
sometimes you gave me some advice,i seems like im heeding for it,
but in fact i did think through what you said,the advice you said.
i really really did manns,so pls dont always say i didnt listen to what you are saying.
i really did.pls turst me.
i'd never treat ur words as nth or dump it before.
Thanksiew for ur tolerating and sorry loads for the trouble,me being kuku and stupid.
Never regret for falling in love with you. =)



笨蛋爱傻瓜！＝D
傻瓜爱笨蛋！＝D

HEY HEY HEY.
IM BACK.
THIS BLOG IS NOT GONA TO ROT =)

Sorry for those who had been contacting me from 12 to 14 june which was abut tues to thurs,ehs?
I was in my own religious B camp =)
enJOy beIng in GAN EN Gp.
uhmm...well let me reall wad we did.hehehx.

Tuesday
Went To tian Hui For BRiefIng.
Wahas.They did a lame morning worked out.
then loads of briefing to do.hehes.
wait and wait.
Finally set off to NTU lerr worr.
Got my room key,and settle In.hahas.
I love the comfy Bed.whee~
room Number 1207.Shared room with XinYan.hehes.
alamak.I cant recall much
nvm let's get to another dae first...

Wed
hahas.
1.breakfast was yummy,hamburger!!!wana a second round,but no more lerr.ohs.so sad~
hahas.
2.im having headache so i went for a rest,later on i join them.
went to the hall,kniwng the QIu gong Qian Ren background,and start off with an activity let us know how hard they work and strive for this Dao.
i rate this acitivty 5 stars,as for i believe that the path and work they went through was even tougher than that.
a.2 arms straight.
b.each hand carrying a plastic bag which put water bottle and filled up with water.
c.from step one to step XX..paiiseh forget lerr.hahas.each question u answer wrong,add one more bottle of water.It was tiring.and i only answer one question correctly.well beta than none isnt it?
3.After that we went to the tou fu jie.hehes.find the what ah sao.hahs
wahhs. i got to go and re collect memories liaos ler lorr.hahas.
went up and down the whole block.hehes.
finally found her!
4.went to deco.BU ZHI ZHU.let us know their hard worj and basically what they did.
hahas.
5.went to the wad zu want.basically singing and acting
hahas.im part of the activity in fact everyone did.
i act one of the scene.whoo~Shoooo..happy.hahas.
6.DINNER TIME.NASI lEMAK.yummy Yum.im loVing it~
7.Time to pratice our Skit.uh huh...
im the narrator.hahas.so fun to be it.im not nervous at all,But im wondering why am i trembling holding the MIC hehes.BUt it's fun narr.last Night lerr leiis!hahas
8.camp FIre.Uhhs.Im So super duper high.Bet u harld GOt a chance to see It.hahas,And perhaps U wldnt want to see worrs.hahas,Well, For Ur Infor i can be a super duper high girl if i want to be.I can also be a damn Quiet gIrl.iF i want to bE.wehehes.
hahs.
9.DriNk a Cup oF super ThiCk Barley,HOld the kEy and run back To the rOom and rest.wohohos.WAIT!of cos we did went to bath before going to bed.hahas.

wait huh...some more reall upcoming lerrs~
Dunnoe which dae horrs.
We did have a few activities.
ahahs.
1.animal kingdom.
2.Discuss in a gp, let us feel the feleing of da ge ge and da jie jie feel when coming up with acitivites. like...>>My gp discuss,coming up with a 5 mins games to build bonding.<< WhilE Other GRoUp, thought us with their own way the recite sutras<< hehes.a few boys,me and one tz trying to make thgs diff for them.hahas.wohoho~
3.ONe more...gather in our own gp,give 30 secs,to give a talk,and share our feeling out on, why we love our own family.hahas.
then went back to hall.go though four stages.for all 8 gps.choose the top four and sent a represetive to go up on stage to sae why they love their own family.hahs.

Stage 1.DrInK bitter tea.hehes.im not afraid of drinking it.i drink tea grow up derr.hahas.when i was young i even crunch the small little tea cup.hahas.that's michiveous of me worrs~
Stage 2.Need to take the thread and pull through the whole.hahas.uhmm..more than 15,i guess.
stage 3.Uhs..eat bread.SOme were Spread with kayas.some were uhmm...WASABI!hehes.
Stage 4. Copy one paragraph of words given by them from the B camp Booklet.

It was an unforgettable 3 days.
It taught me,on about loving family and made me realized too much or too much things lerr~

GuyS Let View thE PHotos =)


AlRight,Friday.
Went To sEnTosa.My Goodness.It rain.But after that the rain stop lerr.
it seems like two gals outing.but aiyas.alr expect Much in this OuTing lerr.SO Dun really mINd.anyway That day can be quite fun in some ways too.Nt totally sianz Nahhs.hahas.

SaTurday.
WenT to waTCh mEN IN WHITE with MY darlIng.
ohs well~ a lame Show,But still nice and funny in some certain ways. =)

IF free I shall Upload More more PiiCs uhhs.
hahas.
Well.Stop HEre.hahas.
Do TAke Care Loads =D

Today didnt go school again.
because im still having fever.
hahas.but tml sure will be going.

wake up repeatedly for a few times yst night untill today morning to fold the hearts.
heii.heii..i manage to complete it in time
i went out to meet my darling and pass it to him the present.
hahas.he said that he is loss of words but he's happy.
When i saw his expression ..ermm.. he look happy and a bit of shocked,ehhs?
flad to hear that.alamak nv took picture of what i did for him.hahas.nvm uhhs.
as long as memory is still there,it wont fade away derr.
So happy go out with him todae,though not somewhere fun is somewhere quite boring,but as long as we can hold hand together and walk around and be a lovely couple,
im happy and more than enough.
hahas.

I LOVE MY DARLING! =)

Sorry guys if u think that she is thinking too much or being over sensitive again as much as before.Pardon if u find her more paranoid than ever
She dont want to become this way.but really too many things happen.
she's trying to cheer herself up,trying not to be so paranoid anymore.
Really,she need time.
Her relative pass away.again what she fear most.live and death apart.
Friendship,bcuz of a outsider got to break up.
She got chased out by her family.
Working and earn for herself.
Result drop drastically.
Sick,No one cares for her anymore.Keep fevering non stop untill now.
She almost knock down by a car,and landed in hospital a few times.thanks god.she was still safe and sound.
She almost lost the person whom she love the most in this life.Thanks God she manage not to let it slip away.
No one understand her,no one knows excatly what she want.
She was damn troubled,She wanted to share with someone.
But who?HIm?recently he is busy and perhaps not in that good mood.
Everything is stirring up,
Her life is going to turn topsy tursy and upside down once more.
She need support,she need love and concern,especially the type she was pinning on.
She realise that she alone cant continue this path anymore like she use to,she wanted to give up,
She admit for this time round,really too rocky,too watery,too muddy to walk alone.
she had no strength to carry on.
She dont want to walk alone.

Yesterday,
to her disbelief lots of things happen.
it seems like from a little match girl she had change into a golden girl.
but,only for yesterday.
She was damn sick.fevering still.coughing badly.damn weak inside.
she used her sickness to hide her grief.
Her sorrow eyes,bitter groud smile,whose head will keep lowered always was all covered by a mask.
A mask which is much more better.a mask which have a smiley face, a mask whose eyes shows happiness,a mask which would help her face up.

She went to bpp with her good friend.
halfway throughout,she cant bear hiding her grief anymore,
she decided to leave,and apologise to her friend.
she went to take 176.To WM.
To recall back all the memories that she had with him before.
On the way,She carried the bear all along,
never let it go.
Her tears was about to roll down her cheeks.

She went up level by level.
First level, Couple Rings,She remeber he said before wanted to back but he's not sure of her size,she already know,it's size 13.
Third Level,watt's up shoe.where they browse her beloved mickey mouse watch together.
Food court,where they used to eat,and shared a plate of food together.
Library.most memorable ever after.2nd of april.that day.they met there.went to library and studied together,play tickling.she wore her black PMK shirt.putting on a blue clip.While he was drinking his bubble tea,too cold and shivered.yet he played with her hair clip and tried to pull it down.She's afraid he might played with it again,and hence unclip and kept it.hahas.
Last level, they went to ENG WAH there,to bet and see what time do the haunted house show start,but in the end she lose.
Basement,she remembered they went into the shop and save,he bought her M&M chocolate.and each time they went to the sweet talk,he will bought whatever she want to drink.
Then she went back to third level again.where they break up.she sat at the staircase,
rinsing through her mind,doing flashback,curdled herself,lowered her head,shake her head and sigh.tears of water started to vibrate in her eyes like gona to flow out.Soon,she know she could no longer hide her grief so she cried out.she cried as much as she want.she knew that it's time she cant be stand anymore,she knew she got to take a break,give into her sorrow and cry out from her agonising heart.cry out and feel better.
After that she was singing in there and expressed out all her feeling which had been eroding her heart and mind.

Later on,she went to take 985.
Thinking of him accompany him to take bus to lot one.
Thinking of what they did in the bus stop.
Everything seems so beautiful in her mind.
It kept replaying non stop.
She board the bus and alight at CCK polyclinic stop.Saw a few guy playing bb in the school hoping and pinning that she could see him.
But no.she didnt.
She went to take 985 again.While waiting for the bus,she called him.
Still thinking of if he want to meet.She doubt he want but in the end,she still tried to ask.
To her surprise,he didnt reject.
She was overjoyed to the moon.Soon,she was energetic again.
She faster board the bus,and was too overjoyed that she alighted the one stop earlier.
Luckily the bus hvnt drove off,she hurriedly board the same bus again.
Finally she met him.

The moment she saw him,
he put his palm on his forehead,
wana to know how "hot'' her fever is.
Of course she was happy,at least she know that he still care for her in some ways or so.
They went to pack food for her sister and set off to WM.
They went to eat sweensens!!!Yummy!!Tasty and delicious.
He called his banana curmble, if she didnt remembered wrongly,and she ate her Firehouse Happy Birthday.They look at the menu,one of the drink called HONEY DARLING.sweet and cute isnt it? But the drink ermms...But what most importantly is the ice cream is tasty.
He ate fries,he wana feed her,but she prank on her,when he wana feed the second time again,she dont trust him,but in the end she trust him again and let her feed.hahas.Indeed worth her trust.while eating loads of her bubbles pop up.hehex.Uhhs.It cost a a bomb.She wana chop him one,but cant bear.LOL.After that she shivering and damn cold.coughing even badly.

They went to uncle tibits,
she wana buy sweets for her friend birthday.
But she was damn cold that she was trembling.
"are you really that cold?"he asked her the first time
She dun know weather should she answer or not,because she guessed he know wad's her next step,but she knew she cant hide it from him,becuase obviously she was trembling.
When he ask the second time,she admit,she expected it.
She got stun and shocked.She dont know what to do,all she could do was to act Xiao.LOL
that was bad of her.
She then later suggest went into the library,as for she knew only there could let her and maybe him too to recall back the past. on 2nd april.nv be forgotten <3

That's where she feels that she's just like a a golden girl yesterday.
Just like from a poor girl to a rich lady,and owns lots of fortunate
and her only fortunate is none other than HIM. <3

Yesterday she dream of him and herr.
my god,dun dare to think.
no guts to and too timid to know what will it be in the reliaety.[ps,not sure how to spell]
what kind if dream is that man!

never went to school todae
still kana fever.coughing and sore throat
wad duhh hell.
no energy to cook for my own,
haiis.nvm no need eat larr.
i doubt there'll be anyone care?except one or two.
but doubt they know.
uhhs.gg to ting too,wana collect something which i had order from the IP zone.
hahas
no more energy to type lerr larr.
stop here =)

buais tc =D

Yesterday was such a long long day.
went to work.
damn cold.
early in the morn woke up alr not feeling well,
went to work even worst.
hei heii.btu im chalice fairy
hahas.luckily i still can stay till night around 9.30 then i go off.
while ting still continue with her work.
kana fever leg pain like hell.
haiis.nvm still.still mistaken someone else as him.
my god,there come my blur vision again!

Todae,
nth much special.
last day of work.
wad a long night too.
help them pack this and that.
horr.seems so sad.like gona leave winning again.
actually work there also not bad,loads of memories are flashing back.
the aunties were very cute!
keep offering us food and sweets.
yummy yum.
the way they talk like very cute too norr.not sure how to describe
but i can tell you that they aer friendly and were like friends to us.hahas
finally got the pay at the end of the day
give 10 bucks to my ah ma who had been treating me the best all these while
hahs.after passing her the money i feel so shy that i pass to her and sae bye i want to go home and bath lerr.
alright im nuts,but u'hve got to understand first time give her money.
nvm.not sure how to explain anyway.hahas.
after work,heard from wad jack had said,feeling even confused.
intend to walk home from plaza,
but on the way saw him and zx again.he ask me to pei zx to take 190.
initially i dun want,but then i gave him face so i accompany zixian take 190 lorrs
well,didnt regret.cuz i liked wad zx said,wad he said make sense anyway.
hahs.thankiew zx worrs!!!
hahas.
okies end of todae.

hey guys,
sorry to make those friends or perhaps him whom had worried for me.
well.neither i dun want to eat nor i dun wish to eat.
i want to eat as much as i can like the past
but too bad,now a daes.no more longer.
cuz im feeling damn low.she said i look so qiao cui since after that day,i dun even know that.all i know is...haiis.nvm...anyway all i know that dun hv appetite.even if i eat, only a little bit,or i will feel like throwing out,or the digesting system nt good.

Coughing non stop.gtg.
buais.tc =)
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haiis.she wana type i love you to him,
but she know she cant .so all she can do is just to put a <3
to represent i love you
tml she hope he would wait for her at the bus stop again.
but doubt he will.
she thought through something,think and think.finally,she got it and confirm something.
she wana made a promsie to him.she wont hurt her hand again.no more.
#she promise___

He'll Be Irreplaced.i love my boy <3

HAPPY SECOND MONTH TO MISS PARKING AND MR MILKY BOY <3

This is the second post or todae or should i sae this is the first post for todae?
because it is already after 12 am lerr.
yup,happy second month =)
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She's envy that her friend is in the same state as her
but they still can celebrate their 1st month annivesary.Anywaycant compare derr bahhs
different ppl got different stand.i respect his stand.hehes.
*sigh*

Thats the most she can do now,
supposingly there should be more,but everything push it to next sat.
this month seems like it's one sided,but well it's ok bahhs
today she hide a pillar and cried and ask her friend to help her pass the winnie pooh hp thinggy to him,because she knew that she would cry,and he dun want him to see her cry.
in the end,he still came and comfort her.not only he lend her his shoulder.But hug her too.
thank you very much.thanks for letting her to going to your huai bao again,to let her feel safe and secure,also thanks for protecting her away from the cat,and also thanks for his comforting words.
she feels that he feel abit uneasy hugging her?perhaps.so she decided not to,when she was about to say,he did it.ok.so she didnt have to say out.

She wish to tell him... "This annivesary may seems to be one sided,dun worry.The hug and all those that you gave me,i wont think too much,i wont take it as a hope or what,instead i will be grabbing hold of the feeling,and took it as the best present i ever had from you for today's second month's annivesary.The carrot cake which you want by me on next sat,i will cook for you.If the carrot cake happen to be cook away by someone else,then i will prepare other food for you.Hey,dun see me that dummy and clumsy.i know how to cook too alright!hahas.alright...darling...you went sentosa yesterday,yesterday was such a heavy rain,hopefully u did not catch a cold and if u did,do sleep early and cover urself with a blanket.dun kick away in the middle of the night horrs.You have a super fit figure,even urr mum agreed.So u're not fat at all,Dun because of cutting down on fat,and spoilt your health,i will be worrying over here derr,ehs?hais yo.Do know how to take good care of urself uhhs.take care loads.I love you,and you'll never be replaced <3>

YOU WILL NEVER BE REPLACED. <3

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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