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05.10.07:

yesterday . went to kopitiam with ling bef0re consulting a doc.i had a insitinct tht the bus driving by, if i look in will got him. so i really did and look . and i saw him.hahas. hiang and ling dun anyhow play play or talk abt break. i know u all joking ders.hehes. but no matter what must zhen xi. u all oso had been thr tough times many many time der. then can stay up will so long . so must hap hap de zhen xi know mar? dun like me. im one of the good example lers.hahas.so must know how to zhen xi uhs . hahas .

wo zhu fu ni men enen aiai <3

Thanks friends for concern dun worry abt my hands.not cut =X hahas. how i got it only got few per know the facts =)) thanks fadz and eli .both of ur cocern on regarding wad i told u all yst. i dun wish to go, but i know i still got to go.hahas. hmm my best friend saw chiu might be accompanying me to there or i be going alone.dun ask me why i nv call him.hahas. i dun know when i will be back or will happen after that . hahs. but i will miss u gals.lols. hahs. and for those who knows what happen to me aft exam. pls keep it mum. and to those who know me the most, pls uhs . dun tell that "friend" of mine . cuz 1. he might not bother. or 2. even if he will , i oso dun want cuz by our sistuation now, is alr worst to the pit .to prevent it from worst to the bottom of the sea. is best not to let him know anythg bahhs .he might not even interested.even if he will.so?now first pirioty is stil still O,ehs? i wana him to pass. so as friend u will help me by wana me to see him pass,ehs?hahs. so thanks lers.hahas.just in case anythg happen. friends all of u must take care, and live well. =D

03.10.o7:

i flung my todae's paper. i guess.cuz when im doing my paper.halfway through writting, my hand suddenly stop and thk of other thgs. i try it hard to brg me myself back othe paper.yeah . hopefully it wont totally flung pls.

aeroplane had eeen flying ard. guess even heaven knows my xin sheng bahhs . it represent the song of wo de cuo .

[[Shagua. darling. miss DINNER with you . dun cut lers bahhs. thk u wont so stupid either and go and cut ders. u know it hurts when i saw the slashing? u know hw ache it could be. pls .no matter what. cut no more. thank you for everything for today . woaini <3]]

02.10.07

today is 02.10.07. half yr gone . i hd been loving a per for more than that.

i dun know . isit the hatred that cover the love.really not even a single bit?i dun know. you might said no .perhaps. i dun know i really dun know.are u true enough to ur own feeling. if not why wld u slip ur mouth by saying then y dint i tell that gal we had a date. why u wana make jealus. out of fun?well my instinct told me if u go inner of ur heart, u still do hv some feeling. a bit...yeah . u still do hv a bit.

yeah i admit i m jealous of u and ur mei and them.i got jealous recently easily. i dun know why either. dun ask me why.

can we just drop this sub untill after o lvl. then we talk abt it. i dun wish affect abt the exam . pls manns.

i just want to tell you that if after exam , really the last chance, if still cant find back any bit and pieces of feelings, then by that time the door in my heart will automatically close TOTALLY. i will let go TOTALLY . and y att towards you will be only friends lers.

If i go in there. i dun know i coming out. but just wish to tell you that. u see silent is another form of dialouge. if silent date cancelled. u dun hv to worry anymore if im waiting for any gd or bad utcome. perhaps u will egt sad awhile. and later n u will get over it and i will be part of your memories. and also, thosse gls who were pursuting for you got more chance than me. like i knowi cant possibly outwith any one of them. i wana tell u too. i hate and i cant bear to leave u. do u really think i love dying that much?

if i dint get a chance to talk or see you. or even turn up for the date.i very greedy i wana both roses and sunflowers worrs. and uhs i wish to tell you, the day i had leave ur life doesnt means i love u no more, u are still my darling, no i mean dear. in my heart and mind . u're irreplacable. and i wana tell u this if i dint turn up...take care my bear. it consists both of our memories. it's all inside.it symbolized everything.

thank you for ur gentleness. ur gentle hand. ur warm hug. ur sweet kiss that chill down my spine. thanks you for turning droplets of tears into may smiling faces.that you for helping me to wipe my tears. thanks you for ur DINNER. thanks you for ur care when i m sick. thanks you for ur broad shoulder on 020407 night6. thanks for ur 020407 splendid night. thanks you for your noodle. thanks you for ur noodle when im back from camp. thanks you for bei wo. thanks you for hanging in toa pah yoh with me.Thanks you for ur cherry necakle which i will cherrish in heart forever. thank for ur bear. thanks you for ur watch. thanks you for giving me a sweet 16 bdae.thanks you for ur car ride. thanks you for ur first letter.thank you for ur bdae card.thank you for ur first choco milky bar. my survivour. if not for that i will faint. thanks you for your good advice and comforint, thanks you for being by my side tell me wads wrong and right and teach me. thanks you for teachingg me in chemistry. thanks you for waiting for me . when im very late. thanks you for enduring and putting up with me. thanks you for saying " my gal cried" to a stranger.thanks for calling me HONEY~! thanks you ur gentle peck.thanks you for your every single thing and eve more to listed. most impt thanks for beibng my wusong, my darling .

When im not by ur side, u got to know all these. EAT hor. sae ler lor. u fat or not fat will still love you. main thg is u not fat.head pain must eat medic. fever must use the cooling gel ,that's the last thg i might be able to do for you. unless u misplaced or threw it away. rmb to pull over a blanket when u sleep. i dont knw if i still got a chance to be ur nurse and let u hug, but do take good care of ur health. dun drenched in the rain worrs. wait for sick how.and dun drink TOO MUCH yakult, wait got flame then u know.mock exam lers.jiayous. dun overstress lers hors.and hor u dun like to tie shoelace der.so walk must becareful alright?try to tune in early,ehs?hahas. ians hai shi heng tan xin ni .and no matter what u do in the future. i will alays give u my moral support and support in whatever you do for ur life path in the future. I MISS YOU

i also wana tell u want thg. if at that time . we dint manage to patch i would like to tell you, dun apologize pls, cuz is my fault who dint love u in the first place. cant be ur happiness and lost u is my greatest regret in life.If we DID patch i wana tell u .thanks for giving me to love u right again ,i would cherrish u even more than ever. after this tough times is not easy to get back. let's put the unhappiness behind and move forward to welcome out new love life.u gona be my super NUMBER ONE! =D

Stop saying i love the wrong person lers. like i said if loving u is wrong then i wldnt want to be right. dun correct me pls. i rather stay wrong without any regrets. dun care outcome is still positive or ngeative.living in memories or because of first love. just wana tell u . at least im TRUE ENOUGH TO MYSELF. i know it beta than u or anyone else do. i know wad i am waiting . what i am doing .and most importantly i know who im loving . is none other than you. chew yong quan.

YOU ARE IRREPLACLE. NOTHING GOES RIGHT WITHOUT YOU.I LOVE YOU.