I only love hIm

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ; 5:45 AM?

Baby , i love you so.

okies.finally set a pw of 0204 in here.
erms,yeas 0204 stands for 2nd o april.
which represent something.and i guess this pw will be more easier for u guys and him to rmb as well bahhs.
wahhs.stress uhs. see uhs! todae 2 to 4 ppl were having their lunch, while im having my ss test,who got me to early departure last weeks.sians =(
then continue up to 4 got LIT! i simply love lit class today,hahas.
ohs.then continue to 6 self study!
now everyday got to stay back untill 6 lers.basically i only fail amath and e math.ok they are more concern about my E math,and i failed it. well was about to the boder line grade.but they said that im in danger zone,because we need sc math and mt to promote! uhs! then tml got ORAL. stress.pic discussion i had lost confidence in it liaos,wad to do. i need some support.
yeah.for those who know me well , will know i wana whose support derr bahhs.
then thurs got E and A math test! Fri MT EOY liaos.then next week more EOY exam coming.
and i realise that i still have MORE TO GO!SICKENING!
OKIES>STOP ALL SCH WORK STUFF>STRESS ENOUGH.
believe that next ys things will get even tougher.

yet,this whole week im lacking of sleep.why? basically i sleep at late nigth.wake up damn early.
then uhs. sigh.wad's wrong with me manns. in class not attentive enough!somewhat got distracted by his stuff these few days for no reason.think i got wang xiang zheng.nvm.
haish.confide in sawchiu alot.thanks SAWCHIU for comforting me abit bahs.LOLs.aiyas she now gona be xing fu soon lers. while im waiting here to wait for mine to come back. i saw smth . and i think it's defenitely right .
"love is not trust.but it CANNOT be WITHOUT trust"
i told her i admit the since the entire break that days after .
i did ask myself.i love him still or is she just still living in the memories?
i did ask myself.i do love him or do i have feeling for him still.
i did have the thought of giving up too.i was thinking if he do have feeling for me or had fade totally.INITIALLY.my ans was, NO. i no longer love him . i had no more feeling for him. she had forget him.

But LATER ON, i realise that she could no longer decieve herself.
each time her friend told her ' i saw ur boyfriend at ....", or "how's u and ur bf"
all Q that got to do with him,her heart started to tremble. xin dou zai fa dou.
each time she see him, her heart was bumping.she was hoping he wont get to see her ,but in fact in her heart she was expecting him to turn his head and talk to her.at least a smile or hi.
she's happy too.
and each time it rain ,my first thought will be him.
i still start to think dun tell me that he's drenched running in the rain again.
when my head ache, i still think of him.how about him is his head feeling better isit reacting or so.
when ppl played or bully me. i will started to call "UHS! i want my dalring~" "where is my darling" ...
Whenever i saw some boys playing BB i wld run there hope to see playing the Ball too.
and many more to list. then i realise that i was just deceving herself for the sake of running away from the worries and pain.but now i decided to face the reality.face the fact. be true to my own feeling. the truth was actually i still do love him still and dun wish to forget him.i decided to endure and wait.regardless wad the outcome will be, as long as i thinks that this path is worth for me walk on ,i will walk with no regrets. if enduring is a pain or toturing in the first place, then i wldnt had choosen to wait. i am stuborn like an OX. therefore once my stand is firm , nothing shall change my mind.

i even told her that if we dint got a chance to patch, never and dun say sorry to me because im to blame for not cherishing him the right way in the first place.
but if we get a chance to patch and be back together i would like to tell him that thanks for letting me love him right once again.lets put the unhappiness past behind continue and move on to welcome our new love life story.

Wherever i go.
the SECRET is driving me crazy.
passer by walk pass me even mention it
whichever shop i walk pass also played the songs!
even my sawchiu lg also teast me with it.
sians. sawchiu dun wan u buy disc for me. u niid to save money ders.
jk bro wana treat but i dun want.
no matter what i INSISTED i told my friend.i trust him.he say will buy means will buy der
will watch with me means will ders. in terms or whatever status are we. i trust him
im not gona to doubt any single thg like what i did in the past lers!NO MORE.

my friend ask me these.
arent u afraid that he might change his heart?
arent u afriad that feeling might fade?
and my answer was as long as we trust each other,and we still have each other in heart
things might get well.i do have faith and have trust in him. he wont run away ders.
no matter what he will give me an answer.
"LOVE IS NOT TRUST,BUT IT CANNOT BE WITHOUT TRUST"

In my heart,he's forever my darling. he's irreplacable.
Just got to endure for weeks only. i believe i can do so.meanwhile i only wish that he's fine and healthy.darling pls if u are reading this , dun overwork or so ,ehs? dun blame me for nagging or so . keep repeating the same point of not to overwork or so. cuz im really afraid and worried for you. i dun want ur head to pain agian,though i dun know how hurt it feels but i know it can be very painful.and u kept thinking of JIAN FEI for wad!~sians. if u are fat i wldnt had want you lohhs. XD but even if u are fei, no matter what u turn into i will still love you. appearance doesnt matter much . u really got charming side lars. even ur mummy thk so.bleahs =P
eat ok? hahas.anyway i believe u will still eat somwhat cuz u seems to love to eat.esp when the food is yummy hahs.how i wish i can see u play and trippling the basketball again.hahs must take care load uhs.meanwhile will miss you loads ders X)

my eyes vision is blurry right now
my health is not that good recently.
so now i shall stop blogging here
and continue tml?
hahas.tc and night! =D

Miss JessY

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer ~~CompliCAted~~
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone

JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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Herr words___ Y

She Wish to say this to him..
Baby, i love you so.
I didn’t mean it when I said
I didn’t love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn’t know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn’t have fathomed
I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I’d be sitting
Here beside myself
Cause I didn’t know you
Cause I didn’t know me
But If I knew everything
Id never felt

The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby

I can’t sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack’s on the radio
Singing to me “If You Think
You’re Lonely Now”
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin’ to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
“I Only Think Of You” and
it’s breakin’ my heart
I’m tryin’ to keep it together
but I’m falling apart

I’m feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin’
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby

When you left I lost a part of me
Is this so hard to believe
Come back baby please 'cause We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place There ain’t nobody better

DarliNg,please remember,
im always here for you
whatever at stake,
whereever you go,
im always here.
I will lend you my listening ear.
I will lend you my shoulders when time get rough on for you.br> I had always wana enter every corner of ur heart to tell you i love you,and know everything of yours.
Plsease do remember
im always here for you =)

I LOVE MY BOY
YOU WILL NEVER BE REPLACED! I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FORYOU.

??????Y

SinnoMemoro I and II had ended.
SinnoMemoro II story was a short and beautifull one
Every now and then She is pinning on for last part of SinnoMemoro story,
A last part which would be a long lasting and more beautful than ever.
Will She?
THE HAPPY MOMENTS

Cool Slideshows!

It might just a be a few pieces of pictures.But every piece of it, content with many hidden different unforgettable memories.

11 oct 2007
I wish upon the cherrish fairy
let him love him me once more
give me a chnace to love him right again
my life's a mess. i cant do without him.

She Needs a Smile =) Y

JournEyY

The Past Y

May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
May 2008
September 2011

My Songs Y

Every Single Song she wrote in here.is especially for someone.
XIANG AI DE YUE DING
Xiang Kan Ni
Que Zhi neng zai yi pang qiao qiao de kan
bu rang ni kan dao wo
mian de ni gan shang

dou shuo hao le
hai mei dao wo men de yue ding na tian
zhi hao zuo peng you

bu xiang zuo ni de peng you
dan ni you ni de li you
wo bu she de, dan you liang jie de shuo xia le
ni liu gei wo yi ge wei wan zheng de meng

wo de xing yi zhi bu ting de zai ku qi
ying wei wo zhi dao ni hai she ai wo de
suo yi wo yong ni de ai
lai liao wo de shang kou

wo ai ni,xiang yao zai ci he ni yi qi
suo yi wo xiang xing ni.
suo yi wo yuan yi deng.

wo de xin men yong yuan wei ni da kai
ci shi, ci ke,
wo hui zai zhe li, deng dai,qi dai.
ni hui dao wo sheng bian
zai ci tou jing ni de huai bao li

qing ji de
wo men xiang ai de yue ding.

Miss Jess,Her Life,Her Girlfriends.

they are da best . no one beats them i simply love them. thanks for being my friends =D =D =D

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