well..today no sch again for me.
Sick.really damn sick.
My friendship with them,
im still preserve and endure on,
i belive one day when i had chg my sensitiveness,they will aacept me naturally.though i admit im quite eager to be part of them,
but sometimes if u wanted a good ending,
u need a key to open the door,the key is "patience"you never know.
i will preserve on..no matter what.

iim also now sick and tired of the project.
nobody to be accept in.
i just hate this kind of life.
i dont want to draw lots,which is actually suggested by teacher.
because i understand that once i draw lots,
if i had draw till that "particular" group,
everything will once again turn upside down

guess..he should be doing fine.of cause he will,he try by all meant to leave,and go into his own entire life,and leave everything to me, to solve, and hide in a dark corner,and clear up the mess.
he even wont help me lesses my burdern, by letting me to complete my last sentence in my entire life.
And for sure, he should be enjoying himself in everyday of his life,every mins every sec.he should be laughing all the way and craps joke.and i guess he's already ahead of me, trying to search for his new life, while leaving me here in a dark corner while i guess that i should be miles away behind from him to clear up the mess.
i wanted to watch the sunshine,the blue skies,the oceans.but it seems that there's a shadow in front of me had cover me
which had become an obstacles, a high wall,who can pulled me up 0ber the high wall??
Saw chiu, Jolene, and others tried to woke me up,but it seems to be pointless,becuase it seems that i am already in a deep sleep.
The day when i stop missing that someone, is the day i had already start to find a new life,a new dream, a everything new start for me.
But when will that day comes?as i had said it had been so long i had never hurt till that deep,the feeling came suddenly,the heart break so suddenly
it's all sudden.

Because Of You...
I had fall into a deep sleep,
in my dream the first thing i saw was you.
Because of you...
I cried inside my own blanket every night.
Because of you...
I had i had lost my my path,and yet you are already ahead of me
Becasue of you...I had forced a fake smile on my face,
I had to force a a fake laugheveryday of my life.
Because of you...
i had hurt too deeply till i am feeling numb
Just because of you,
i had cause so much misery for myself

In this life,i guess you had hurt two girls,
one of them is me,the other you should know who isit.
i know you wish to hurt that another girl,
but becuase she did smth to you,and u just simply cant accept the fact,i understand.
But for me, i dont know weatehr isit if u purposely or not,perhaps there;s really a great misunderstanding between the both of us,
the mistake we took was that we didnt express ourselves out and carified properly,which leads to a state like that.It's so unfair,why everything seems to be so unfair??
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sick.
cough.
fever.
pain.phsically and mentally tired of friendship and...

you sae she lie to you??u thk eveyone like to lie to you??she lied got reason der.is vaild somemore,not like ur previous few friend.but everytyme she lied to you she got reveal out the truth,ehs?
and she lie to you that her line had chg cuz she wana to leave you last tyme.she wnated to leave you becasue she understand that u and urr ex got one prob.she wanted you to think better.
valid enough?
Next, u say she never cherish u??she did!!!!Is just that she didnt express out only.
must cherish one ppl,need to show out??
Never miind.yst her jie told that per B wad u tell her,she tell her is just cuz she wana her to wake u,but she didnt[[so dont blame her jie]].today she meet her gd friend,her friend is sick and tired of seeing her looking so pale,nv eat anythg the whole day,she tried to wake her up,but in the end that per B didnt.she bath under the shower for 1 hr,without swtiching on the heater,she nearly knock by car 3 or 4 times, cuz she was thinking all these stuff on her way is not she's being exgrating,her jie can withness that for her...she even cried in class, or recess or even iin sleep ,i just hate to see her like cry baby.As she had dun know been how long had never hurt till so deep ler.
Of cuz,maybe,after you read this you dont feel anythg neither you will feel sad, cuz u had try by all meant to leave her,and then leave everythg unsettled for her,and dun even let her complete her last sentence.and keep hiding urr true words in ur the bottom of your heart in the first place.
One more thg very ridiculous you told her jie she dont worth urr respect,then iin the end u sae she worth again.and u told her jie u will tok to her when u r free,then after that u told her friend even u all play bb together u wont tok t0 her or do anything to her.Then you sae she make u dislike her,but in the first place,u and her agree to talk out everythg and express how u all feel,did u say that eu are angry and confused of her for wad she did???NO . u didnt.then u blame on her.[[I knew that you are partly angry and confused of her cuase she awhile told her friend is positive a while is negative,of course will lar,its common,hao mar?when one per hvnt make up their desicion naturally their will mindset and their answer will keep chging]]
Next you say sorry is just a word,is doesnt meant anythg,but yet u still say sorry to her,wads the use??Now is not the matter of who say sorry.Beside you seems like thnking that she pushed all blame on to you,but,in fact she didnt.and you said sorry is just a word,so wads the use even she sae to her?i sae all these not wantong u t0 pity her or what,so dun misunderstood.i just wanted you to know,please,next time never ever hurt another girl,Per B now she might in damn low tide,but she still preserve on,Not every girl can be like her hurt so deep yet still enduring and waiting for you,Some other girls,their heart is fragile der.and pls lar..since u sae ur tired of loving a per,then even IF now u had stead,you are play with her feeling de huh??therefore in my own view i feel that u are lying.SEE!you also lie others.
and even if u and per B like each other again,whiie dun give each another each a chance??i feel that eur devicing urself lorr.aniiwae for the sake of you she had...aiay u wana noe go ask her gd friend,who is in ur class nar.But i dont think you will ask.As i said the most you just leave her liaox,then enjoy ur life,would you bother that much?
and the way u tok,dont u think that from the head to the tail,is all qian hou mao dun der mar??
Thats all i wanted to say for person B
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i miss you.though nobody can wake me up,but i will still continue to wait.
cuz i guess its worth it.and wads more,
iif i really had ******* you,i wont let my determination fall that easily.
cuz i believe in miracles.

She Not That sImple as you thInk
She's neitTHer CompliCAted
Know Her and You WiLl KNow.

Miss JeSsiE

HEr name,JessIE.TingWei
She simply loves her name.
[xiAoWei] reserved!dun u dare to call her that,except for someone


JESS is her beloved name =D though she's 16 but she still play and fool around But she can be mature in her thoughts. She loves LOLIPOP CHOCOLATE and CUTE STUFF yea. yea. she's STUBBORN like an ox.CAT is mighy scary to her X( glad that. there's always a him to protect her awats from the MIGHTY SCARY CAT on her way on , learning to be more OPTIMISTIC and stay GAIETY
HerrADORES <3
HIM <3 -My beloved ones.who is there for him to lend me a shoulder whenever i cried, hug me when i need comfort.a great guy who's able to tolerate my att and characters. might feel tired at times,but i know he do care and concern for me. when im in thy wrong he defenitely correct me.A great boy by my side who had never fail to turn my tears into droplets of smiling facees with his full of craps and lame jokes. he's my WUSONG.woots.whenever i see a mighty scary cat from far away.i will run away.if he's around. i got no worries.becuse.i know that he will protect me away from thy might scary cat. His actions and words defenitely melted my heart.he do shine on me =D

SawChiU. -A bossom friend who had been by my side for 7 yrs plus ahem. im annoying at times.she tolerate all.and truly accept for who i am as her friends.she do DIY stuff for me whenever i wana cry, she defenitely will make me high and laugh all fun days. with her superbly lame stuffs and joke. my day with her make feel more brighten up than ever =D

QianTing. -A good listener.it feel simply great to share joy and laughter with her when putting up at her house.a good friend indeed to be with.who had plan my most memorable 16 birthday. though we do have conflict at times. but sometimes i defenitely do know that she meant well for me. she lend me her helping hands when i do need it =D HERr TEST. =)

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